How many times have i asked myself that question?
I go a couple of days, a week, and i feel better. Less stresses, more in control, more positive about life, work and everything else.
Then i go and ruin it all by gambling, and losing money i don't have.
The last time (yesterday) was down to boredom. I'd had a good couple of days at work and wanted to unwind on the trip home. Had a bet each way, it won, so money back, gambled that, it won. Put the lot on a football game. Lost. This is two days after saying 'no more for me, wont bet again, cant afford it, have a debt i need to clear, birthdays and holidays to pay for, so what makes me act selfishly and irresponsibly. Hated myself last night because i know the amount i've lost through gambling. The fun stopped a long time ago.
Day 1 (again) and i'm going to nail it.
Hi. I’ve just read your post and can’t believe how similar my story is! Same thing really, go a couple of days, then start again! It’s so frustrating but I am seeking help for it. I’m doing online counselling every Monday and I’ve been open and honest with my wife about it.
Hi Mspoh18,
Thanks for responding. Online counselling sounds like a good idea. I need something like that. I'm just so angry with myself at the moment. I used to think i was strong and rational. I havent got the money to gamble with, so what makes me do it. Anyway, i've spent time today blocking accounts etc.
Good luck with your recovery too.
Mozza
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