63 days

Hi everyone,

I just wanted to share what I feel is a big success for me.

i just had a thought in the shower this morning, of gambling, and instead of feeling desperate to go and somehow try to beat the blocks i have in place to gamble, I just felt pretty proud.

Instead it was a realisation of how little I think of gambling now just 63 days into my recovery. Gambling is no longer the first and last thing on my mind everyday... I feel blessed. 

Of course I think about it sometimes but i’m going strong. I’m annoyed I didn’t do this sooner, but grateful I now have made these changes to my life. And it’s immense what a change it’s made! 

I got paid last Friday 30th Oct, I still have money in my bank. I’ve mentioned before that it’s a huge deal for me as for years all my money would be gone on payday and i’d be stressed for the rest of the month. As well as not gambling, i feel so in control of my other spending too. 

Anyway, I hope others who joined around the same time as me are in the same boat. And of course everyone else on the forum, I sincerely wish you all the best. 

I don’t think i’m cured from this and will never let my guard down when it comes to gambling, but I’m so proud of myself so far.