Because I am becoming a much healthier healed person I am less likely to react in unhealthy ways due to my unhealthy painful anger rage resentments guilt shame regret I no longer want or need to transfer my painful anger rage resentments guilt shame.

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gadaveuk
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Hi
 
I am a non religious person.
 
Yet I am a much healthier spirtual person.
 
Today I understand that my conscience is very much spirtual based.
 
Because I am becoming a much healthier healed person I am less likely to react in unhealthy ways due to my unhealthy painful anger rage resentments guilt shame regret I no longer want or need to transfer my painful anger rage resentments guilt shame regret on to other people.
 
Because I am becoming a much healthier healed person I am less likely to react in the unhealthy fears I use to react to in the old days.
 
I no longer need or want to lie to my self or other people.
 
My addictions and obsessions just indicated that I had certain emotional triggers.
 
My addictions and obsessions did not indicate that I was a weak person.
 
The simple truth I had suffered many kinds of abuse and by being here I am a much healthier servivor.
 
My addictions and obsessions were the s ymptoms that I was emotionally vulnerable and the simple fact I could not heal my self of heal my pains or heal my hurt inner child.
 
Money on its own would have not healed my pains.
 
Some might think that money on its own is the most important thing in our life.
 
Walking in to a recovery program was a very scraey thing to do, and for sure I did not stop on my  own own.
 
In recovery program once I gave up talking about my addiction being in action or talking about money only then could I move on to sharing therapies and getting to the crutch of my problems.
 
As my therapies to come out of me, my fears reduced and my intimacy started to grow.
 
In time sticking with the recovery program I got expose my hurt inner child in me.
 
The lists of abuse were long.
 
The hurt inner child in me wanted to be nurtured loved and have healthy intermacy and that was not possible.
 
Not feeling loved you tend to think it is all about some thing is wrong in you.
 
May be I was unlovable.
 
The rage and anger that was dumped on to me was nothing to do about me.
 
The rage and anger that was dumped on to me, was other peoples pains that could not be healed,  it was other peoples fears that could not be reduced or faced. 
 
Anger rage resentments hatred is a very unhealthy reaction to pains fears or frustrations.
 
If I had not invested my time and energy in to the recovery I would not be the person I am today.
 
Walking in to a recovery program is not about who is right wrong good or bad, it is abaout admitting to my self how unhealthy I was but more inmportantly learn how much I can find a much healthier life.
 
How many time each day do you hear people say that they love money, that they love their car,  that they love their house, that they love their material things.
 
Do people understand what love truly is, surely love is about a healthy intimate relatioship with no pains, no fears, no lies and complete trust.
 
How often do people think that intimacy is a sexual or physical thing, surely healthy intimacy is an emotional connection.
 
How healthy is a society when addictions are leading to self destruction suicide and deaths and no one looks at their society and asks how healthy is our society are we in decline and if so what are we going to do about it.
 
These are not strangers, these are our children our husbands, our parents who in so mauch pain and suffering.
 
When a society every single day hears on the media about people killing other people, about people dying for to early in thier life, even young peopple killing other people in their own community and think of it as just another statistic.
 
When does this society say enough is enough, people are living in fear of going out in their own streets today. That people are even conscious and aware that it is not healthy to go in certain areas as it is far to dangerous.
 
Love peace and healing to every one.
 
Dave L
 
Dave of Beckenham
 
Posted : 12th March 2024 7:26 am
gadaveuk
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Hi

It was important for me to understand that my addictions obsessions just indicated how emotionally vulnerable I was before my recovery.

Every pain in my life caused fears in me that I did not understand.

Being unhealthy I woud live in fear of being honest becuase my hurt inner child of being hurt again.

The fears I lived in suppressed from from living a healthy life.

I felt very threatened by being questioned.

In time I got to understand that my fears restricted me from living a healthy productive life.

Also my unhealthy fears restricted me from having very healthy intimacy with my self and with other people.

As my fears were reduced my trust grew and I was more open to intimacy with others.

My unhealthy reactions to people life and situations help me understand that I was still hurting inside.

Healing love and peace to every on.

Dave L

AKA Dave of Beckenham

 
Posted : 13th March 2024 5:12 pm
gadaveuk
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Hi

First it was important for me to abstain from my addictions and obsessions.

Often people will swing between one or more addictions and obsessions.

First thing for me to abstain from my unhealthy habits.

Keep attending recovery meetings.

It was very important to find a healthy meetings that shared therapies.

Then to hand over all of my finances.

It was important to share what my feelings and my emotions were.

In time I would understand that my unhealthy reactions to people life and situations I was hurting my self.

In time I would exchange my unhealthy reactions to healthy interactions.

Once I was more open and honest my fears would reduce.

I then found that my trust grew in me once I over c ame my fears.

It was important to work on my recovery at a stable pace.

No more rushing at things.

In time healing took effect.

In time having emotional intimacy with my self and with others was very healthy and powerful.

Healing love and peace to every one.

Dave L

AKA Dave of Beckenham

 
Posted : 14th March 2024 6:49 pm

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