Hi Joydivider
That post must have taken a lot of courage & brought back some painful memories for you. What a fantastic post thank you for your candid honesty i admire you so much. Knowing youve gone from feeling such dispair to well on the road to recovery you are an inspiration to all CGs. Thank you for sharing your story and your understanding of this wretched addiction. I am sure this will inspire others to recover and live a better life.
Kind Regards & Stay Strong
AL
Hi Joydivider
Thank you for such an honest account of your own story and this horrible addiction some of which I can relate to- others I can’t as it has never got so bad and I hope that I or my partner will never have to. He is reaching out for support and we are talking now more than we ever have about it all and the extent just now is nothing like as bad as it was 7 years ago so I’m hopeful that he will get back on track with it all- I know he is determined.
I will never ever be complacent about any of this again though- I know that for sure, far too much to lose.
Thank you again and I wish you well
Thanks for your reply Eij and alwalm.
Im glad you are talking and he is reaching out for support.
I cant believe how bad it got and it flares up out of the blue with stress and depression. A actually went from a delusional comfort zone of blowing £100 in a pub machine and thinking I could handle it as I had a reasonable job.
I had periods where I hardly gambled and falsely believed I was in control of it. I was hooked at 12 years of age and gambling has always been my weakness until I had a born again moment and realised that abstention, telling the truth and blocks was the only way to fight it hard
I help on here but I dont get urges at all now because I just know its harmful and a mugs game. I had no control when faced with a temptation I still cant fully explain. Of course gambling crosses my mind as I log in to this site but it doesnt control me any more. I cant believe the mess in 2015 was actually me. Thats how much its an illness of the mind
I wish you all the best
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