where to go from an admission.

I think the gamanon website is up to date, but there is an online chat room Sunday's and Tuesday's, 8pm to 9pm, there's always two or three admins in there who would know for sure.

The moments when you can forget are bliss aren't they? There will be more, it gets easier, the pain of remembering diminishes too, once you have some positive experiences of coping with it all and finding out just how strong you are.

thank you pangolin. i feel like i can see the light at the end of the tunnel but just cant reach it.

How are you?

CW

Hi. Cynical wife

Thank you for asking, how i wish that just once he had just once this past week asked me that. I'm not really sure how I am. With little to no food in the house this week has been a struggle. My parents have both cards so asked them to take me shopping when i got paid. How strange it feels to be so relived by such a simple thing as having food in the house.

I have watched him looking so down and broken and although there is a part of me that just wants to hold him there is another part of me that is so so angry with his self pity.

I,'m so hurt that he has put us through this and part of me feels that although the right steps he has been baby sat through it all and hasn't really had to face any consequences.

I though of writing a letter to get it all out uninterrupted but to be honest i dont know how to put it in to words or ecen where to begin.

Thank you again for asking. How are you?

Hi, KayLouise

Thanks for asking. Have been v distracted by other things this week, a crisis at work, we're (actually, he is) doing some DIY so whole flat is in chaos and now I have toothache. The barriers are as strong as I can make them and he's showing no signs of attempting to bypass them so some reassurance there. So at the moment, all I want is a good dentist and to have order restored to the flat. I know that I am less than complimentary about him but he is much more respectful of me now and more thoughtful now compared to how he was when he was active. Although the comparison is from a low baseline.

You should get whatever help and support you need, I go to my counselling sessions. No miracle solutions but it is a chance to let off steam. Do nice things for you, take time for you, it needn't cost.

As Pangolin says, keep talking, tell him that you expect him to care about how you're doing. If he sticks with counselling and goes to GA, he should become less selfish.

Take care,

CW