Most of the things I have had to bring myself to come to terms with recently are still extremely difficult to even begin to try and put into words.
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For the past year or so, I have spiralled out of control due to excessive gambling. I am 30 years old, I will turn 30 in May. I never really gambled during my youth and only the past 3/4 years have I began and started gambling.Â
originally this started with petty sports betting. Unfortunately I discovered casino games, mainly roulette. I’m not sure how but I managed to win just over **. This turned into **, by this point I genuinely was convinced I had a superpower or was the star of the Truman Show.Â
sadly this luck did not last and I became lost and delusional. the money I won, I lost. To try and cover my losses, I began chasing deeply which only aggravated my situation. I then started taking out personal loans, some of which were paid back. I borrowed money from family and friends under false pretences. I lied to my partner and I have let my soulmate and my 8 month old daughter down massively. Something which is extremely hard to come to terms with.Â
I now have a plan in place to pay back my debts and I have been gamble free since march 9th I have a long way to go and I personally feel like my life my brain my thoughts have been stolen away from me, but everyone has a choice at the end of the day.
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I have a lot of work to do and I have a lot of bridges which I have burned. I have forgotten the good things in life and I hope very soon I can learn and become the person who I thought I was once again. Take care everyoneÂ
Hi there,Â
First of all thank you for sharing your story and the impacts gambling has had on you. I'm sure a lot of people in the forum will relate to your experiences. Acknowledging the harm gambling has caused can be a helpful step in finding acceptance of what has happened and also for motivation to make a change and move forward.Â
Congratulations on being gamble free since the 9th of March, that is a great achievement! It sounds like you are putting helpful things in place and taking the steps you need to take to move forward from gambling harms.
If you need any further support with moving forward from gambling please do contact the helpline on 0808 8020 133 or use our live chat/ Whatsapp to speak to an advisor. We are available 24/7 to provide support.Â
Best wishes,Â
Amy
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