Today marks my 70th day gamble free.
I hope Pink Lady, Tazman & Weirdfish are well and thanks again for your previous support and comments.
If I am totally honest after the first tough 2 weeks, the urges to gamble did disappear. After so many botched attempts of quitting in the past, I am convinced that this time it will be the last.
All I have to battle with is the demons of debt. The constant thoughts in my head about “Why didn’t I quit when I attempted to a few years ago, I would never be financially in this mess” But I must look to the future and not in the past. I cannot change the past but can make a better future.
It is hard because after 9 years out of control wreckless gambling & 250k of losses, I am currently stuck in the middle of wishing I could rewind the last 9 years, or fast forward the next 3 years so that I am debt free.
With determination and discipline I will carry on with this journey to freedom. The one time devil on my shoulder is getting left further and further behind me.
Keep fighting everyone.
Great to hear mate. Well done. You sound like you’re on top of this and in a good place. The only thing to change now is your thoughts. They can be dangerous. What’s done is done. There is no point in beating yourself up about it. I’ve not even considered how much I’ve gambled away over the years, only the debt I have now. I have a plan for that so I don’t even consider it either. I just focus on getting it paid off. My only goal at the moment is to get that paid and stick to the plan. One day at a time for gambling and one month at a time for debt. The last 4 months for me have flown by. I rarely think about gambling, and I know before long I’ll be looking back, debt free and blocking this period of my life out. I had a huge debt to pay off and if I think about it there’s always a little thought of hmm maybe a little gambling win could help. Nope! Forget the debt, forget the past. Focus on the now and the future.
Congrats again mate. A huge achievement so far.
Stay strong 💪
Brilliant stuff King. Just keep telling that devil to “trot on”!!
keep aiming for a better g.f life.
Pink Lady 🩷🍎.
70 days gamble free is absolutely fantastic mate. Well done!
I'm currently on 3 days since I joined this site and started looking for help. Like you I look back at the past 7 years, at all the money I've wasted and lost, at all the things I could and should have done with it instead and hate myself for it but I've got to stop thinking like that too. I have a plan in place to pay my debts off and in 3 years I will be debt free, hopefully still gamble free and looking forward to the rest of my life with fewer stresses and worries.
Good luck.
@g4pv3yauqm Appreciate the message. Good look on your journey.
Stay disciplined and we can both reach that 3 year target of being debt free 👊
Amazing achievement. You have used support on Gamcare so well and it has spurred you on. Here's to the next passage of time waking up knowing that day will have no lies deceit and just hope for the future. It is all posssible, I know!
Patsy
Online peer supporter
Hi
We will often hear the word fight battle towards our unhealthy addictions and obsessions.
I found that for me the only person I was fighting was my self.
The word surrender feels much healthier for me.
Just for today I will surrender to the fact I do not want or need to gamble.
If I was to gamble today it would make things much worse and more painful.
If I was to gamble today I would learn and understand what my emotional trigger was.
My emotional triggers indicated that I was emotionally vulerable.
I was emotionally vulerable yet I was not weak.
My emotional triggers were my pains not healed.
My emotional triggers were my fears not faced or reduced.
My emotional triggers were my frustrations.
My emotional triggers were my loneliness.
My emotional triggers were my boredom.
I enjoy healthy living today.
I still go to meetings for my self.
I still go to meetings to show my gratitude towards all the people who helped me finf a much healthier life today.
Just for today I will exchange unhealthy habits in to healthy habits.
Just for today I will no longer be the loner filled with fears.
Healing Love and peace to every one.
Dave L
AKA Dave of Beckenham
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