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Hi Wittle,

Welcome to the Forum!

I noticed that you have started a recovery diary, too. That is all a good start!

Have you thought about putting some blockers into place, for example to ask someone else to look after your money for a while so you cannot access money when you feel the urge to gamble? You mentioned your struggle walking past the bookies on your way home. It can be very helpful to ensure that you close some of these possibilities off for yourself as well as possible. You can also exclude yourself from the betting shops near you by contacting the self-exclusion helpline 0800 294 2016.

If you would like to find out more about these strategies or other support available to you, you can also get in touch with us on the HelpLine on 0808 80 20 133 or NetLine http://www.gamcare.org.uk/support-and-counselling/frontline-services/netline

Both services are open from 8 am to midnight every day.

Stay strong!

Kind wishes

Gabriele

Thank you . The way home thing isn't a problem, I'm going to try with the things I've put in place personally for now. If these don't work I'll have to look at some more extreme ones . Will keep posting on here. So far so good

I wrote this to reflect how I felt about what happened..
This ones hard to deal with cos I remember as I was doing it thinking to myself , I don't really need to do this . I wasn't having to chase any losses . I'd had the perfectweekend really. There was no real benefit to my life a small profit could make to me really . But there was a massive negative a large loss could . It was as though I was asking for trouble, and I got it. Them first few coins ... to lead to that. Life changing . Now I have to put up with the shaky feeling , depression, sadness , guilt ... For what ? Because I tried to make 20 quid ? Wow . Once it got me it didn't let go for 2 days . Don't let it get you again . Greed and stupidity? Or maybe just the fact I couldn't stop it even if I wanted to ?

Hi How are you doing ?

Good luck on your Journey

Sammy x

Your post above resonates with me bud, we don’t even desire the profit but we are able delude ourselves into thinking that’s exactly why we ‘play.’ This is a very messed up emotional/behavioural pattern that sucks the life energy out of us and leaves us feeling worthless after we’ve binged out on the gambling experience, one for me that is very played out and offers nothing which even resembles joy anymore, I am numb to it all and thought of it makes me roll my eyes right now. I used to turn to it thinking it could solve feelings of boredom, loneliness or inadequacy when it only ever amplifies all of these feelings and brings other issues with it as part of the package. I can’t bow down to any of this anymore, enough is enough.

It’s a extremely sad state of affairs that I must to stay clear of, I won’t gamble tonight and will log in to make the same commitment on my diary tomorrow. Good luck pal, you can do this, I hope I can too.

f****d up again . Why oh why

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Brilliant mate absolutely brilliant. Sounds like you're well in control of your personal battle , fingers crossed. My relapse was just so annoying and stupid and basically came down to me not checking on bus times. I was in a bar in town and instead of looking what time the next bus came , I just came out and it was 25 mins until it came . Now you would think bookies would be closed at 9.30 pm on a Sunday but of course they still open as late as possible to get the last remaining mugs , in this case me. Since then the questions have just been spinning round my head , why on Earth didn't I check ? Why didn't I go for another drink somewhere else to pass the time etc etc . I was on day 14 too and feeling good about myself . Now it's back to square one . Why should this time be any different? It just seems to drag me back in every time . I am determined though .

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Love the advice pal . I'm gunna be strong