I started gambling almost 20 years ago and spent thousands of dollars in a few months, instantly realizing I had an issue I confessed to family and friends and barred myself from the casino. I moved to a state with no gambling and had no issues all this time. Now online gambling gave me access again and I have lost so much. I told my husband and I know he was disappointed but supportive but I didn’t stop and he now has no idea the scope of what I’ve lost. I’m angry because I keep trying to quit but everything online floods me with more ads. It will take years to dig out of the debt and that’s a reality I can’t even deal with. Hoping my story gets it off my chest enough so I can breathe and maybe comfort someone else
Dear Kkuens,
Thank you for sharing on our forum. Others will be able to relate to your situation. You took some good protective actions in relation to the casinos, but the online gambling is too accessible and there are triggers. It sounds really tough going. If you haven't considered it already, then try and involve your husband in the management of your finances/hand over financial control.
In addition to support from others on the forum, here are some links which might be useful to you.
https://www.gamcare.org.uk/self-help/links-to-other-support-agencies/international-support-contacts/
https://gamban.com/blog/does-gamban-work-in-my-country
https://www.gamblingtherapy.org/
Best Wishes
Fiona
Forum Admin
Hi
Guilt for me is living in pain of the past which also means I am living in fears today.
By going to meeting I found out how emotionally vulnerable I was.
Guilt for me indicates that I have a healthy conscince.
By going to meeting I learn to abstain from unhealthy habits.
But more importantly I learn how to heal my pains.
The therapies help me expose the hurt iner child in me.
I get to understand how to live a much healthier life.
I tend to not react in such unhealthy ways.
Life is more abut having healthy interactions.
Love healing and peace.
Dave L
AKA Dave of Beckenham
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