Day 1

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Hi Nikki, sorry no one got back to you sooner, it can be a bit hit & miss on the newcomers page. You don't sound crazy at all. All addictions are emotionally based. Either trying to manufacture ones your not getting in your day to day life or trying to numb the one's you don't want to deal with. Maybe try calling the helpline on here or check out your local GA meeting for immediate support, hope and understanding

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Hi Nikki, I understand where you are coming from. Do you have a good job so that money flow keeps coming in? That is always a plus. I don't have that flow of cash and I spent savings. It's hard no matter what our circumstances . Emotional gambling is very common and that is what fuels my gambling urges. Today wanting to go left me feeling physically sickened but I stayed put and have entered several posts on this site today. Stay strong and keep posting. Just keep coming back is what they say in recovery. T2

Yes I have a good job- but because I was getting into debt I got a 2nd job- so I do always seem to be getting more money... but then gambling. I feel sick today. I have blocked myself from themain site I used which is a good start. Then I have made a list of all my debts and made an action plan of how to pay them off. It's not going to be easy 🙁

its day 11 for me i hit rock bottom 12 days ago and just sat and did over a grand-so disgusted with myself-i am doing the 100 day challenge and just filled diary in before i logged on here and it was all about my mood swings and how they are realted to how much i gamble if im stressed i just dont care and even if i win i give them it all back-its about distraction and submerging into another world far from reality and the more we get in debt the more we need to escape and it goes on until our anxiety and addiction takes us over and we hate ourselves-11 days is a milestone for me-was over anxious for a couple of days then pow felt free as if though id been let out of prison-please flow with it if i can do it anyone can honest x

It's weird isn't it!! It's like I'm emotionless!! Does a diary help x

Hi Nikki

Good luck. im new here as well listen to everything people say to you on here and it will help. Start a diary. If you feel low write in it. As I say im new to this but i feel I can beat this. Its going to be really hard but WE CAN DO IT...

Keep strong Nikki and just keep posting when you get an urge

So lovely you lot!!! I feel stronger with the support!!! I feel better keeping busy xx

busy needs to be your middle name now lol. I went for a walk at 2 this morning woke and thought i need a bloody bet, so got up walked roud bloke. Got back in bed and thought. see man in my head i can beat you..

Hi Nikki,

Glad you popped into chat earlier. A diary does help and keep posting everyday (good or bad). Nice to get the opinions of others.

Best wishes

🙂 bed day 1 boxed off! What's the group on fb called x

Compulsive gamblers united

Day 2 🙁