Hi,
Today is day 3 of no gambling for me after 4 years of ups and downs. I have finally admitted I have a massive problem that needs to be sorted for the good of myself and my family. I have a really well paying job and a great family with a wife and 2 daughters, but still I have managed to jepodize all this through stupid gambling and left with massive debts.
I haven't always been a gambler and really can't explain why I have gambled , but I am feeling determined to end this misery. I've been to rock bottom believe me, 2 loans, 4 credit cards and 6 payday loans at one point!!!! I couldn't sleep at night and seriously thought that ending it all may be the best thing. How could I be so bloody stupid just to keep pouring money after money into such a stupid obsession of winning it all back. I must have been impossible to live with, mood swings, always serective and more time devoted to my phone that anything else.
Well it all came to a head 3 days ago and strangely I feel a massive relief come over me to have someone else knowing. The debts still need sorting and will take some time but I no longer have all this hatred built up inside me.
I am determined never to gamble again and put right all my wrongs, I desperately want to return to the man I used to be.
Well still a long way to go, but I definitely feel I'm on the right path. Hope to find some support on here
Time to depower(probly not a word) yourself...hand over control of your finances to your other half. Cancel bank cards with visa ability and get a basic bankcard. This takes away your ability to gamble and makes gambling urges easier to manage.
Get to GA meetings where youll meet people who understand you(it seems normal people wont and cant *** our senseless behaviour).
And read other diaries on here and stay on here. Im over month gambling free and alot of that is because i come here
Wow...the word g r a s P was starred out by the gamcare team!!! Why?
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Thanks Joseph, totally take on board your advice. To be honest it will be a welcome relief to not have control over my money. So glad it's out in the open and in moving forward. Was just in a trap for so long trying for that big win to make it all better.
Hiya mate hope you are well.
Your story is almost identical to mine. We have everything so why do it?. I did alot of soul searching and finally came to the conclusion that i need the buzz, i stopped playing football when my boy arrived and at the age of 34. I missed the buzz of winning and the feeling it gave me on a saturday night or monday morning! so i replaced it. Quite simple ay. You also have a reason it could be a trigger in your brain that you were born with, or an escape etc etc. The fact is you may never know, but you do know you have to sort it out. You're like me you have too many people depending on you.
Take each day at a time- set a challenge when you wake up. You either win the day or you lose the day. Some will be a bigger fight than others and you have to be prepared that you may lose that day. but believe me when i say it ALL gets easier! You drag yourself out of hell one day at a time. inch by inch.
Second learn to forgive yourself. you're not a bad person- you just have an addiction. Lesser people cant even accept they have one. YOU ARE ALREADY WINNING!
third. you have to get tough with yourself now. It was the one main thing that turned me around. Dont play the victim dont feel sorry for yourself anymore, shake your head and get resillient. There's worse things going on in the world. You can do this.
Never give up! Good luck- i have a strong feeling your gunna be fine.
hi lads
hope your all doing well today and training your brain to resist all forms of flutteing
why can,t a destructive hooby be easy to kick ?? we know the damage and normally we would stay away from danger but no when gambling involved , loads of others things to do
stay sweet all
Hi
During your days of strength please ensure you are setting up the proper blocks and exclusions. The days will then rack up.
The best advice I can give is make sure the days are mounting up for the right reasons with proper blocks. Fear and willpower alone will not do it. I used to manage a month through sheer fear of paying a certain bill. That however wasnt the conclusive test for me.
Only self exclusion and really telling my family I was an addict started the healing process. I felt better being monitored and having to prove myself...then my mind started healing.
best wishes
Dazlar words from someone who has recently come out about gambling,(day5) it's painful to admit to having such a habit, but each day gets easier to cope be proud of yourself I met with a family friend who until I spoke out, I had no idea that he was once a gambler, 2 weeks ago he went out with his new work mates where did he go... I couldn't believe he had been to the races an didn't even once got near the bookies stands, altho he did confirm he was P****d as a f**t an spent all day at the bar. He told me just last to gather a group of close friends family an make a group message an every single day send them the date/time you had your last bet, mine being 26th August 2.30pm, an get that date stuck in your head that much it makes you think of all the times before that date an how much better life has been since that date I Sent my first group chat this morning an by dinner everyone had sent me the date back be proud you have stopped mate an you will soon see the benefits an your mind will be free of thoughts, someone asked me the date today when signing in on the building site I'm on too which I replied day 5
hope I made easy reading for you mate go steady RBDTR xx
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