Determined to beat

Hey,

You've taken the first step by admitting you need help bringing yourself here. I am in the same position as you, I am only just beginning my journey to recovery. I think with the support here, we can and will get the help we need to beat this.

Well done for reaching out.

Thank you! 

Yes I agree... It's such a horrible situation.

I have decided to try to not think of my losses (it doesn't help) but to think of what I can do without gambling.

Trying to get onto a site to have it tell me I'm excluded was a relief in a way, I was actually glad.

Have you registered with GAMSTOP? 

Well done to both of you for starting your journey to a better life.

@missyf123 - Tell your partner not to bail you out again! Tough thing to do, but gamblers cant be trusted with money, you've already shown this. Also if he does and you fail again, the trust will disappear. Repeated lies will only end a relationship. Other than that, put all the blocks you can in place. if you don't trust yourself, give your finances to you partner. If you don't have it, you cant spend it.

@g4pv3yauqm - You are correct. The support in here is amazing. Even the smallest of comments can brighten someone's day and inspire them to keep fighting. Join the chat rooms, read the diaries, start your own. I spend several hours a day looking around on here. It's my new addiction. 4 months gamble free and i still do it so it clearly helps.

Good luck in your journeys.

Stay strong 👍 

@missyf123 

Yes, registered with GAMSTOP, installed GAMBAN on my devices at home and my phone and tonight I will attend my first gamblers anonymous meeting.

I used to think about what I could have done with all the money I've lost and wasted and it made me feel physically sick. Disgusted with myself. Now I'm looking to the future and beating this addiction.

@p6z38njbqm 

Thanks for the kind words and support. I joined the chat room for the first time last night and found it great. I've also been spending time looking through the forums looking at the different stages of people's journeys. I'm hopeful for my future thanks to all this.

@g4pv3yauqm 

Yes it is sickening when we think like that but we are here & we ARE going to beat it.

Well done sorting a meeting! 

Keep remembering you are not alone. 

@p6z38njbqm 

Thank you! 

I am lucky I have this chance. I will build trust back & I will do this! 

Thank you again! 😊 

Hi Missy i would strongly advice to hand over finances for the first couple of months at the height of my addiction i simply couldnt trust myself, these urgues can be very strong which is why the relapses happen, i use to feel pressure like something was over powering me and until i didnt gamble i couldnt find peace in early days are the hardest and be honest

with determination and really wanting to stop put every imagineable block in place and lead a happy gamble free life.in a few months gambling thoughts will be just a distant memory of your past but certainly not of your future 

@tazman Thank you!

Yes iv had a couple of urges today but iv resisted. Iv taken up watercolor painting! 

I actually found it easier than I thought to resist it. Plus iv got excluded from sites.

I just want to be free from it 

@g3y6a5jbds I can't wait for it to be a memory. 

I'm so ashamed & blame myself for everything at the min.

I just need to change mindset to positivity.

This forum is great for help  😁 

I was in same boat missy gambling destroys every part of you physically mentally and financially .the one win resets the desperate dopamine hit then the fun starts with the big losses no sleep not eating constantly on edge the  gamblers brain trying to convince you it's ok .to have  7 days of 19 pence spaghetti and the bag of tatties to make chips.every day.life is so much better now without that horrendous gambling addiction

@g3y6a5jbds 

Yes definitely, it was the mindset of 'just one more' etc etc... then the win made me feel fab, then I'd lose it & feel so bad, guilty, angry & when you look at it, your highly unlikely to win big & make it back. 

We are here to beat it!

Don't even think about it now thank goodness the thought of flying out to   a remote spot in Malta or Gibraltar looking for the owner of a po box trying to collect my winnings from an online betting site fills me with dread although admittedly I thought about it 😀