Hi I'm 23 and found the love of my life around 4 years ago, when we first got together she was unaware of my past and my very addictive personality. When I was 18 I lost my dad to cancer and he was at the time my best mate. He left me and my sisters a decent some of money which apart from buying a new car with I have pretty much gambeled the lot away! There has been a few times over the last four years where I keep thinking that I have beaten the demons but they keep coming back! I find it very difficult to talk about how in feeling as i believe i have never got over the death if my father and gambling is something that filled an empty hole in my life.It is starting to ruin our relationship due to her not trusting me! I hate myself constantly for the pain I cause her and I want to change. I've found this website in hope that I can change and stop hurting the one person that I truly love. Any advise from anyone who has been in this position would be gratefully appreciated
Hi Alice
Firstly well done for admitting you have a problem and coming here.
We're all here for the same reason and I find you can talk more openly to people on here and the support is great.
I registered with gamstop which was really good at first but soon found a way round it. Ive now registered my devices with gamban and this has been a life saverÂ
I'm the same as you, lied to my nearest and dearest just to have a spin on the slots, I didn't pay bills and rarely ate a good meal
It had to stop for me, I'm only on early days but with all the blocks in place and support here, I can no longer gamble
Don't loose everything like me and most of us on here, you're young enough to have a brilliant, healthy life
It's hard but do able
Take each day as it comes and over the days and weeks you will feel so much better
Wishing you all the luck xx
I am in the exact same boat as you right now. It's really having a massive impact on my life, I'm of similar age and would love someone to have to chat to about similar issues. So I'd love if you were willing to do so!
Welcome aliceprince, and thanks for sharing your story. It sounds like you've been through a lot, with the loss of your father, and are now worried about damaging your relationship with your partner. There is help out here for your gambling. Forum members here will offer support and perspective. If you're looking for 1:1 advice and support on how to get your gambling under control, you're welcome to call our Freephone HelpLine on 0808 8020 133, or chat to us 1:1 on the NetLine.Â
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