First step to stopping

Hello northeastsmog maybe you could tell us a little more about yourself. About your problems etc so we can understand what your going through a bit better

Hello Northeastsmog

Welcome to the forum, I'm glad you were able to post something here today and hope that sharing on the forum will help you with your recovery process.

It may also help to use the netline or call our helpline and talk things through with a GamCare adviser on 0808 8020 133. Gamcare advisers can provide you with information, help and emotional support.

You can also be referred to our free one to one counselling service at a suitable location of your choice. http://www.gamcare.org.uk/support-and-counselling/face-face-counselling

The helplines/netline services are available daily from 8am until midnight.

All the best

Cade

Hi ya & a massive welcome to recovery 🙂

I hope your words on other threads means you are moving round the site & reading reading reading because that is what kick started my journey to where I am now! All the advice is out there & in it's most basic form it is to get help (counselling/GA/Gamcare) & put barriers up (get the gambling triangle, Time-Money-Location broken)!

We may not be able to conquer our addiction but we can figure out how to call a ceasefire - ODAAT

Hi I'm back again and things have got alot worse. I wenter online last week and lost another 12k that's 18k in two weeks I now owe 40k can't believe I've done this.feeling as low as I could ever feel. I was doing so well for the last few years after losing alot of money about ten years ago. I have told the wife and she's been so supportive I'm just waiting for her to explode at me. I can't believe I've done this to my family again, I just want to turn back the clock a couple of weeks. I've now got years of debt just for a few stupid hours. I don't know were to turn now, I've got know urge at all to gamble again, but this debt just can't get it out of my head. I need help I just think any minute now my world will collapse around me.

Im in the same state as you in debit over my head, have you been on the chat room between 8-9. I sat down on Tuesday after losing 8k and thought i need to stop this is going to kill me. I found this site went on the chatroom and got some good advice of two guys Dean and Jigsaw, My worlds in bits mate cant sleep or stop thinking about the money ive lost... Ive started to read the post on here mate and im sure we can do it. Lets be honest its not going to be easy not one bit. I got up this morning and destroyed every card I have so Ii cant get my hands on any money. Good Luck mate its not going to be easy .....

Hi I'm back again, Sunday night went crazy again nearly lost another 10k, but luckily enough I won 15k back instead, so my big debt has disappeared a weight has been lifted off my shoulders, it won't be happening again I have had a few weeks off torture. But now I'm back to nearly even, and got no desire to go back to that bleak place, I got that impossible win. I got out of jail, now I must learn from this and remember the pain.

And everyone lived happily ever after

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At my lowest ebb now. Feeling very lonely and afraid. Went online again and lost 40 k in a few hour's, now owe 55k and don't know how I'm going to pay it back. Got a lovely wife and two great kids. Why have I done it to them. Don't know were to turn I'm making myself ill. I need help deseraptly, finding it hard to get out of bed and feel normal and smile. Feels like this pain will last forever I just can't cope anymore with what I've done to my family. Feels like I'm going to lose everything.

Hi Mate, might not be the best advice out there but I am sure you will not lose your family because they are your family...but only if you cut your loses now....Otherwise you will be chasing that big win you had just like I did many many times and i did a few win a few times but it only made things worse...it does sound like a large sum but it will only grow larger if you don't stop now... As of right now if you have access to any money you will be thinking of that next big win...Unfortunately there are no get out cash prizes for us ever...speak to your family, gamcare or maybe friends that can help through this..but do something just don't leave anything to chance...if not you will be back...and believe me each time you relapse it will worse then other times ...make this the last one

Thanks donas79, my wife knows everything and at the moment is standing by me, I don't know why been together 20years and I've gambled alot of that time but not to this amount. I just need to keep a roof over are heads. I'm not even contemplating gambling ever again. Haven't for a month and I know I can't win that amount back anyway. I just need to keep my family together at the moment. I can't lose them aswell. I just know it's going to be a long road back to normality. I wish I could forget it ever happened and smile and be happy but itsso hard
When you're in so much debt for nothing.

It's good to hear that things are a little better now and it's out in the open now and you can start re building normality in your life...it will be long road ahead but it will worth it... as someone said the pain might be there for a day, a week or even a year but it will subside but if we don't quit it will be with us forever...be strong and good luck with your recovery