Well after another attempt of quitting, tomorrow will mark my 1st week gamble free.Â
I would like to say I feel good but my goodness it has been a struggle. Headache, mood swings, not fun to be around. Constantly trying to fight the urges & distract my mind.Â
But I have to find a way of keeping the devil off my back, this cannot carry on for my own sanity & the future of my family. If I can nail this I am 3 years away of being debt free. I know I will always be an addict, but its a milestone I have to reach.Â
At 42 I can turn my life around, I have to try to stay positive, forgot the 200k over 8 years I have lost, I can never recover those losses but I can shape my future by nailing this.Â
I feel lost emotionally, the loss of the excitement of placing a football bet, the buzz of checking the odds. I am almost grieving the loss of gambling in my life.Â
Come on I can do thisÂ
The only way you will stop is to put the blocks in place self exclusion from all bookies using moses and gamban on all your devices and blocks on your bankcard hopefully you have done this willpower is never enough believe me I tried using willpower and it doesn't work hopefully you have done this and take care of yourself also
@c17ort you need to replace the gambling with pleasant activities. Try and rediscover what you enjoyed before the gambling.
The void of gambling will need filling or it will always remain. Make a list of things that you enjoy doing and do one thing off the list every few days.
You absolutely can do this. But have a plan in place for when you get the urge to gamble. Also think how you will feel when you gamble and then the empty dull feeling of numbness and hate when you lose your hard earned cash.
I like the way you personify the gambling as a 'devil on your back'. It totally is!
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