Had enough

Mate, we are all the same, I resonate with all of that but for longer.

there does come a time when you have to say no more, by god it’s hard and understand it’s always there in you, just try your best, stay determined and hope that things will get easier.

you don’t beat this, you just never gamble or it does beat you, hope that makes sense.

good luck mate 

Posted by: holycrosser

Mate, we are all the same, I resonate with all of that but for longer.

there does come a time when you have to say no more, by god it’s hard and understand it’s always there in you, just try your best, stay determined and hope that things will get easier.

you don’t beat this, you just never gamble or it does beat you, hope that makes sense.

good luck mate 

Hi Holycrosser,

Thanks very much for your message and advice.

I fully understand this will be a battle i'm going to have face everyday and its not going to be easy. There have been periods in the past where i have managed to abstain from gambling and i know i can get back to that place if i try. Just now it does seem a long way off but i'm determined to take it a day at a time.

I have unfortunately found myself in this position and it is down to me to take the right steps for myself and make things better. Ive never looked for help on my own but i can see on here there are a lot of people who have suffered similar experiences. There's a long road ahead but i will keep checking on here and hopefully i can look back at this being the first day in my recovery.

Thanks and continued luck on your own recovery.

G

Hi Dave,

Thanks for your message. I can relate a lot to how things must have been for you before entering the recovery program. I know this is a long path and i do want to do this for me and for my family. 

In the past i have always looked for excuses not to go to GA meetings - work commitments, travel, feelings of shame & embarrassment. I know everyone is there for the same reason and this is part of the recovery process.

I did speak to my local GA earlier and made arrangements to attend tomorrows meeting. I will post on here how it goes.

Thanks again and continued luck on your recovery.

G

Hi gr3884,

Welcome - your story doesn't seem massively different than mine. One thing stuck out - "I have had enough", that's exactly how I felt 9 months ago.

Good to see you giving GA another try - hopefully it will give you a really good framework and support.

Put all the blocks in place. GAMSTOP, GAMBAN, self exclusion from high street bookies and casinos.

We can't solve all our other problems today, but we can decide not to gamble.

Hi everyone,

Just wanted to provide an update after having been back to GA for my 1st meeting in a long time. 

I went along on Monday evening and it was really good to take those first steps (albeit minor) back into a path of recovery. There was a mix of emotions for me on the night - began with some nerves & reservations to eventually feeling at ease, and in the end a real sense of relief that i had come through the first night.

There was a lot discussed at the meeting and having listened to some fellow members stories & them telling a bit about their own path to recovery it left me with a great deal of perspective on my own route to being back at GA and the reasons why i want to & need to make a change.

I have already made arrangements to attend a 2nd meeting this week and will continue with the commitment to get well. 

There is a very long way to go but i just want to thank everyone for the messages on here and advice. 

G