I have just joined this forum having spoken to a lovely lady this afternoon and booked my 1st counselling session for next Wednesday. I gambled this morning for the first time in many years. I used my wife's account to fund my gambling I was given the card to get 40 pound out. I walked into a bookies and blew it playing roulette we don't have a lot of money but I went on to withdraw about 180 pounds chasing my losses. I have texted her and told her what I have done now I feel like s**m. The last time I Gambled big was about 10 years ago . I don't understand why I have done this I wish I knew why I would do something that made me hate myself so much.
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Thank you for your support. This decease we suffer from is absolutley life shattering. Please would anyone reading this just take a minute to think carefully next time they pass close to a bookies door. Don't go into it , these machines are evil they are making the bookies millions of pounds a year and causing untold suffering for people like ourself that have become addicted to playing them. I have been fortunate that I have never taken myself into desperate debt, but I have come close to losing the woman I have been married to for 37 years. It is the look of mistrust that I see in her eyes that causes me the most pain.
Hello kev142
Welcome to the forum. I can see that its difficult for you letting your partner know what has happened and I am sorry to hear you are giving yourself a hard time. It can be helpful to you to let family know that the gambling is a problem so its out in the open which can then allow you can get support. Your wife could look after the account /cards if that is what you both agree together as a strategy to look after finances. You are already motivated to seek help and I wish you well for your first counselling session next week,
There is also self exclusion from betting shops you can activate by calling 0800 294 2060 they will be able to help you self exclude from your local betting shops within a ceratin radius. http://www.gamcare.org.uk/get-advice/what-can-you-do/self-exclusion#.VBwD4_ldXww
Keep posting we are here to support you
Kind Regards
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I know exactly how you feel, only last night my lies and deceit uncovered, I was supposed to be paying in money for bills instead I gambled it online in an account in my wife's name as I was self excluded from the site. I woke this morning with that dreaded feeling how much have I lost and was there any drama, unfortunately for me lost enough and yes plenty drama. The gambling demons will take every part of you and spit it back out, well Ive had enough woke up this morning and had no excuses excuses felt like total waste of space, joined here after looking at this site for many months, going to change my life for the good, hope you can to.. Take care
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