Help I'm new!

Hi,

It's going ok, still GF, I just seem to find myself worried about the evenings and worried all the time that I have nothing to do.Its ridiculous, like i have put this horrible, soul destroying rubbish on a pedestal.

Well done for resiting My biggest test will come on payday next week...dreading that, alreading trying to make plans for that evening so i am not at home on the laptop with temptation.

Hi,

The late evening's were my time to log on and gamble. Whilst my 2 daughters and wife were asleep oblivious to what I was doing.

Maybe worth downloading a few games via apps on your tablet or phone. That could help distract, or reading books, amazing how time flies when doing normal things non addicts spend their spare time doing. I know it's very hard to fight the urges. For me the financial pressure of business and personal matters is the major factor as to why I have continuously chased losses. I have to accept those monies are gone forever and look forward not back. Struggling this morning, got a day's work ahead so keeping busy but mentally not in a good place.

Have a good day.

Hi Mate keep at it. I've just lost thousands of pounds in 30 mins of online madness which it will take 5 years for me to pay off..keep strong

Whats make you think that that you a bad person? Of course being a player is a bad thing.

But you have not one chance finish the game in the casino, if you dont have save you money, or СЃhange minimal deposit limits allow you to limit the amount of money, you can deposit into your account. The deposit limit will allow you to restrict the amount of money entering your account, before you gamble.

Hi Xenedra iv'e got a chocolate Lab and he knew when i was gambling and he saw it all to the "your such a lucky dog" to not going out and throwing your laptop against a wall, he must of wondered w*f is going on with him. Dont gamble and you will be a different person.

Hi smashed.

Aren't labradors amazing. I lost my baby to cancer on 4th May this year. My heart is broken without her. She used to stay up with me when I gambled, occasionally looking up at me like she knew it's was hurting me to loose all my money and then spend weeks worrying how il pay bills until next payday. God I miss her. She made everything better when the house was dark and quiet and it was 2am on a work night and I sneak out to the garden in the pitch back, light a cigarette on the bench and she would dutifully follow me out and sniff the air. The amounts of times I'd rub her head and day things like 'no more gambling for mummy Welly' , 'don't tell the other humans' or more commonly 'what are we going to do now'.

She loved me regardless. In the days after her death I couldn't physically gamble without her sitting beside me. But it wasn't long before my addiction took hold and I gambled more and harder than I ever had before. Trying to fill another hole in my heart.

I would love to have her back even for a day. To go to bed when she wanted with her and just be content with her cuddles and smell. But no, I sat, like zombie, staring at that screen and missed out on so much...too much.

I needed to write this. She was my good luck, my confort in the bad luck and my confident when I couldn't ask anyone else for support.

Love you Welly, miss you all the world xx