Hi everyone. So this is my first time of posting. I have been gambling for the past few years and I knew it was a problem but just didn't own up to it, or want to. I lost my mum at the end of last year and things have just spiralled. I used to leave myself very little money each month, but now the last few months I spend everything on the day I get paid. I can't even explain why I do it. I know I have bills, and I am trying to buy my mums house and need a mortgage. Yet still something takes over and it's like I'm possessed. I'm so angry, low and just can't see a way out. But I carry on thinking everything will be okay, but deep down I know it won't. I now having nothing left to get me through the rest of the month and it's so hard, but I know it's my own stupid fault. Sorry to go on. Reading some of the posts is kind of reassuring that you know you're not on your own. Just struggling where to go from here.
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Mona x
Hi RockChick,
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Take care,
Adam.
RockChick….you are not alone for sure.  Is there someone you can trust to hold your money for you and help you manage any debt you now have?  I believe in you, but you need to turn your money over to someone if you are having a hard time.  We all gamble to release endorphins and feel good.  I had to get to the depths of my other problems so I could feel good without having to win money.  In the end I always chase my wins…just like my losses.  I’m convinced that big win will keep multiplying…but it always evaporates.  Don’t beat yourself up.  It’s a disease.  You wouldn’t beat yourself up for having diabetes and doing a poor job of managing your blood sugar.  This may be a part of getting over the passing of your mom.  I’m so sorry for your loss.  Starting with a counselor and/or doctor were things I should have done a lot earlier.  You are catching this early.  Get it stopped!  You can do it!
Greg
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