Hi,
im new here but have a problem which is just so much bigger than me.
im 34, married with children, mortgage, a good job. Life is pretty good except for my gambling which over the last few months has just spiralled. I’ve always liked to got to bingo and played it online too, I like to play online bingo and play on the slots at the same time. Last year I had some wins which I withdrew from my gambling account. But since then I’ve convinced myself another big win is coming, and have increased my stakes so I now spend £100 in an hour, the last few months Ive spent all my spare money on online slots and today I’ve just spent £300 on my credit card on slots online and I’m so mad at myself. I tried to tell myself that it’s not an issue as I’m only spending my “spare money” (bills are always paid etc) but I’m earning good money and I’m always skint, my hubby laughs about where my money goes but he has no idea I’m gambling it. Every month I tell myself I’ll stop but I never do, and now I’ve started to use my credit card.
I don’t know how to stop... I’ve done self exclusion but then I just join another site, I can’t bring myself to admit this to my hubby as I tell myself I can stop when I clearly can’t.
I feel like such a failure and I have no idea how I’ve got here.
You've recognised it's a problem in time to stop it ruining your life and that of everyone around you. Don't waste the chance. Tell your husband and enlist his help. Making yourself accountable to someone else makes it very much harder for you to gamble in secret. Once you've done that look into all the other physical blocks you can put in place then start to address the underlying issues with counselling sessions (free from Gamcare) and attendance at GA.
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