Hit rock bottom

Hi all posted a couple of times on here before. I come and go with gambling i dont understand how its came to this tbh. As the title suggests I've got to the point of no return due to loose my fiance and my daughter due to my habit spiralling out of control the last few months I've went from being reasonably sensible apart from the odd big loss every blue moon I've never been the type too loose everything my bills etc were always paid before i had a flutter my god how times have changed.

I'm now at the point where I'm literally gambling everyday I'm extremely bad on the fobts (slots) I just seem to loose all sense of money and time and it's destroying my relationship. like I've said I've always loved a flutter and could get carried away from time to time but the past few months things have escalated to a point where I'm losing all my wages without paying my bills today was the final straw for me losing another few hundred pound which was my money to get to work and live until end of the month.

I've lost everything which my misses has explained would be the straw that broke the camels back as she has bailed me out massively over the past few months and won't do it anymore. The thing is I'm not even enjoying the flutter anymore I feel numb when a big loss happens and just feel stupid for doing it again when I promise myself I won't. I'm literally having to work 7 days a week working 2 jobs to try and earn some of the money thats been lost in the past few months as it makes me sick to see my bank balance sitting how it is savings been completely destroyed after saving for months to go visit a friend in Holland which I can no longer do.

I know this addiction is costing me everything yet I continue to do it luckily in comparison to others on here I'm not in any large debt but I know if I continue I'm going to end up in debt up to my eye balls or be living on the street or both. I need some help before I become just another guy who lost everything. I've put blocks in place barring myself, cut my cards up nothing works and the thought of GA meetings don't appeal to me. Just had to vent and get this out my head as I cant say to anyone or its goodnight Vienna.

all the best people and thanks for reading if you've got this far.