Hi! My youngboy dream always was to create my own Business. So i have been building this business last 3 years
Last few months has been horribly spiral. I gamble all my profits away. Sometimes it just gets black in my eyes. Then i pick myself up again. It goes well. Generate revenue trough the business without the feeling the need to gamble. But lets say that my business can bring me some impulsive behavior.Â
However the gamble mind is taking over right now. Sometimes i just go into a trade to get the feeling.Â
I dont want to giveup my childhood dream. But at this point i am so scared for the future. Years and years of studying and finally getting into the zone of consistency.Â
Feels like some demon took over. Cant sleep anymore. Barely eat. The gambles are not on daily or weekly basis. But sometimes its just 1 day and that does the damage, then i work up again for 2 weeks and then boom again.Â
Anyone who have ideas to manage this? I trace it, the feeling comes up when i have bad sleep. And i have ADD whereby my melatonin gets produced later than usual. Wherefore i sleep late. I can sleep 5 hrs a night for a week. Then friday boom. Profits of the business all away.Â
I feel that i cant do my work good anymore, i feel my girlfriend also doesnt like me because i am not happy last 3 months.Â
I have some debt to pay off. Not huge, but i couldve payed it off already 2 months on row. But descided that money try to flip to make back lost money. Which resulted in 2 months of profits gone too.Â
Feeling like im living on the edge right now. Any suggestions? I know that i need to take a step back, but in the moment its all black. FYI the gambles are not online casinos which i can block. Any advice? Should i stop my business?Â
Hi dxyd,
Thank you for sharing your story. Gambling doesn’t need to be daily to be harmful, I can see how much this is having a huge impact on you.
This struggle does not mean you need to give up on your dream, but it is important to get the help you need. Problem gambling is cunning, powerful, and baffling and without help can feel like it is too much.
You can contact us to look at the different support we offer, including one-to-one, peer support and self-directed, online help. https://www.gamcare.org.uk/get-support/talk-to-us-now/
If you are not UK based have a look at the international support. https://www.gamcare.org.uk/self-help/links-to-other-support-agencies/international-support-contacts/
Regardless, keep in touch and keep sharing your story.
Take care,
Nicole
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