I felt like I should post after reading forum

So hi,

My names Aj im 33 and I dont have a gambling problem at least I dont think I do.

So im broke this year havent had a job all year living off my girlfriend pretty much which is a s**t situation to be in but there you go hoping its all going to get better in the new year new job etc

Anyway since the beginning of the month ive been worried about christmas and I had no way to get any extra income in to buy presents for close family etc when I seen an add for deposit 10 pounds and get 50 free spins or whatever it was no wagering requirments etc.

So I thought f**k it what have I got to lose and deposited my tenner. I lost the tenner but I gained it back on my free spins I promply withdrew my 10 pounds and then it hit me..

There must be tons of these offers so I thought to myself ill go through the lot! try and win some money for xmas

and I went through alot of them man so so many, winning on some losing on others and I was breaking even overall was still sat at pretty much nothing no money for christmas and I went on a site that I wont mention because I dont want to tempt anyone but it was a MAJOR one and I was playing like normal using my 40 quid welcome bonus and suddenly I won like 170 on one spin I played a little more and it happened again and again and again eventually I was up to around 700 I could not beleave it.

I was like ok im done withdraw this and ive paid for christmas I was so happy.
Then I realised there was wagering requirments

Aparently I had to wager my 40 welcome bonus 40 times so a total of 1600 and ide already done 300 or something

I thought to myself it will probably all go before I get to the 1600 but ill give it a try anyway when I finally hit the 1600 wagering requirment I had 500 left which I withdrew

Done christmas paid for I was well happy.

Around 3am that night I couldent sleep so I decided to play a tenner on the slots tire myself out so I deposited and played and I s**t you not I dropped the progressive jackpot (the small one) 180 quid!
I withdrew that aswell.

Balling at this point ive got aprox 600 for xmas.

Next day I goes out buy's myself some new clothes and took my girlfriend out on the town spent way more than I should have

But been xmas shopping and paid for some presents ive got 300 quid left and only a couple more to buy,

Now sat here a couple hours ago I got bored and thought f**k it ill deposit 10 on same site and see if I cant win any more

I lost that but I hadent seen the feature once so I deposited again saying to myself ill stop when I hit the feature hopefully win my money back rationalising it to myself

anyway 100 quid later and I finaly got the feature which paid me 5 pounds.. and I realised that ide been very stupid and lost 100 quid chasing a loss whilst totaly mind controlling myself rationalising it in a stupid way

Now I realise that this pales in comparison to most of you guys on here ive been reading some horror stories on here because I google searched "lost a bit too much gambling" and came here.

I just wanted to say that your stories have totaly gave me a reality check because I was actually thinking ide found some life hack where I could win the money I needed when I was desperate (It sounds stupid when I say it aloud)

I dont think I need to ban myself from anywhere but I just wanted you all to know that reading this forum has stopped at least one person from falling down what sounds like a chasm you cant climb out of and I hope that maybe that helps at least one of you

Peace.