I love gambling

Thanks Joydivider I take everything you say seriously and on board. I have today excluded myself from the website I used to use. It feels good to know I can't go on there. I'm not telling my wife . I appreciate what your saying but she will leave me and take my child and I'm not taking that risk . My descion. Thanks for all your continued support appreciate it. Two weeks complete GF and payday finally here - absolutely no urge to gamble - all the best

all the best mate , stay strong , pay day always the hardest for a CG , i know it is for me as seems like funds to play with then spiralls

but thats why ppl talk about prooper blocks , you mention your favourite company but there sooooo many more online and on high street so stay vigiant and totally know what your saying about the threat of loosing ur girl and kids , be too much probably lead you to gambling as im a dad and the thought of not seeing my little girl every day frightens the hell out of me

All da very best

Hi PMW,

Yes! I do hope you prove me wrong (and others)....

On a lighter note I was a human sports fixture/result service! It was nice the other week to get in to work to hear fro a work mate that Djocovitch (spelling!) had lost in the early hours in the Aussie open. In the bad old days of have known this before either going to sleep or getting out of bed!

How thing's have changed. I was shocked by the news, but at least it wasn't because I'd lost a bucket load of cash on it!

All the best.

hi mate,

just read your diary too, my story is literally exactly like yours, not gambling but looking at the fixtures still, telling myself mentally what i would of put on. then typically it wins. im going to keep an eye on your diary too. all the best in your recovery, stay safe mate

ben

Just posting on here so any new members can read. I am now 50 days gamble free! So it is possible . Looking back I think I should probably claim an award for the most stupid title of an introduction thread . 50 days on I DO NOT LOVE GAMBLING! However I know that back then that was my mind set and I really thought I was still in love with it . I can now see with a little more clarity that you can't love something that is destroying your life piece by piece. It's like I was in an abusive relationship and I couldn't see the damage being done to me because I was still 'in love' that sounds crazy I realise but to any new members I would just urge you to do what you can blocking wise and then literally take each day as it comes . Don't set yourself 100, 500 days etc not in the early days - set yourself a week, then two, then a month etc. Also do a recovery diary it really helps to offload I have found posting in the recovery diaries section really cathartic and I will continue to do so

Best of luck to anyone reading this

Brilliant to hear you made 50 days PWM 🙂

Great advice too about taking each day as it comes. The idea of saying to myself "I'm never going to gamble again" was too hard to accept and made relapsing 'sooner rather than later' an inevitable result. Now I say to myself "OK, I'll not gamble today and then see about tomorrow", it becomes routine but doesn't feel so daunting.

Well done again, great to hear you making a success of this 🙂

Thanks Phil appreciate the comment and glad to hear your doing well to - it certainly is a mindset change that you have to go through . After 50 days of waking up saying i will not gamble to each day it seems to have done the trick so far

Brilliant to hear Pwm101.

So for everyone it can be done. The mind heals once proper blocking measures are in place. I dont know who I was in 2015. I believe I gambled then 🙂 and I cant believe it was me that did that.

The days rack up with the blocks counselling and an honesty/openness with how you are feeling.

I accept you wont tell your wife pwm so I feel its becomes more important that you do have some counselling or talk to someone. Keep using the forum to help others because its a nice way to focus your energy into putting something back.

Its also very important that you do other things which hold your interest. I collect things and I go to the gym. There are 24 hours in a day and plenty of positive things to do

Best wishes from everyone on the forum

Thank you joydivider much appreciated here's to the next 50 all the best