Hi everyone,
I have had a gambling issue for a few years now on and off but it got out of hand earlier this year. I broke down to my husband and deleted all accounts and put a block on gambling from my bank/debit card.
Last week I recieved an email for a free bet to an account I hadn't blocked or had missed. Stupidly I logged on and won, felt that rush immediately.
I won for a few days feeling that high only to end up now today down. I have registered with Gam stop today.
I feel like a complete failure I very Very stupidly chased the losses ... thinking one more bet and I'll win it back bet on low stakes can't lose! That's obviously not true and now I'm in a state of complete panic and disgust with myself.
Even now as disgusted as I am with myself the urge to bet is still there. I don't even know what I'm hoping to achieve with this post but just feel I need to put it down in writing so I can see myself.
I hate to think the money I've lost this year ... thank god I haven't gone too far but the stakes were rising and it wouldn't have been far off
Dear Dev20,
Welcome to the Forum,
As you describe sometimes just writing down what has happened and how we feel can help us to organise our thoughts even if we are unsure of the goal. Well done for putting banking blocks and GamStop in place. You are not alone in having challenging thoughts about wanting to chase back your losses. Try not to be too hard on yourself, paradoxically punishing ourselves can be unhelpful to our motivation. You can find help with your thoughts and feelings connected to gambling. If you are based in the UK (except NI) you can call the National Gambling Helpline on 0808 8020 133 anytime and ask for a referral for 1-2-1 support.
Best Wishes for your future,
Louise
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