Hi Everyone, I've been chasing losses now for about two years now. I always bet on football and NBA basketball. It always starts off with a ВЈ5 bet and a £10 bet there but every time I end up back at the same place it spirals out of control and before I know it I'm absolutely devastated after loosing thousands.
Every time I bet on sports something out of the ordinary seems to happen. A rare 0 -0 score or I'll miss a win by a disallowed goal in extra time. Or missing a basket ball game by half a point. I used to blame god thinking he was teaching me a lesson..what ever bet I put on the world will not give me a win. No matter what the bet is.
I now believe that it is the devil's work. I am on my final chance now. If I gamble again my family are going to dissown me. I quit yesterday and I am so determined to do it this time. Gambling has destroyed me and turned me into a horrible person.
The last 2 years of my life have just been constant stress and it's really not worth it. Last year I was up about 6000 on basket ball and I was on top of the world. I felt unstoppable and amazing. Unfortunately I had no self control and by the time the money was back in my account it was gone again. Now I have completely ruined my credit rating. I'm about 10,000 in debt. I have accepted that the money has gone..I think that was my problem when I started loosing. I am so stubborn and wanted to win it back. But just got deeper and deeper into a hole. The other night I has a massive loosing streak and hit rock bottom. I held a knife at my throat and wanted to kill myself but I didn't have the guts to do it. I feel like I 100% want to stop now but the aftermath and depression is terrible. It's so hard to accept that you have thrown away all of that money which i have to work hard for.
Hi Swebat82,
well done for coming on the Forum and sharing your experiences. Thank you for your honesty about how desperate your were feeling last night. I appreciate rock bottom is never a comfortable place to be in, but generally it help to motivate you to make some positivie changes. It is possible to stop, for everyone. But recovery requires the right tools and dedication.
It sounds like you have the dedication and you will find plenty of information about the tolls on the Forum and generally on the website.
Please also feel free to call the Helpline on 0808 8020 133 or the Netline here.
It also sounds like it would be good for you to go and see your GP just to get some help from a medical professional.
And if you are feeling suicidal please also contact the Samaritans on 116 123.
Please make sure you look after yourself and that you stay safe.
All the very best,
Eva
Forum Admin
Thinking that the subtle twists of fate are the work of the devil is not a bad coping strategy. Remeber the good things that happen went you don't gamble - and note those freak results - when you would have lost money. They are more prevalent than you think!
Good luck - things will be better if you can stay gamble free.
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