I Joined the the site last night and spoke to a few people and today ive only gone and done it again
I just sold a few items to get some money to buy a few presents for the kids for christmas and found myself in the bookies chasing and losing everything on roulettle
Im really kicking myself now, i dont know why i went, the worst part is i was up and pulled it out, left the shop had a smoke then went back in and lost it all, what is wrong with me.
I Work away from home and i have blown my wages and the extra bit, How can i go back to my wife and say i have done it again, and just before christmas
The only person who can stop is you. Self exclude from all the bookies. You're never going to win it back, you've just shown yourself that by continuing until nothing is left.
Sounds like your a compulsive gambler, you wont win the money back as you cant control this addiction. Like the rest of us you simply cant stop so over time you will always lose. Get to your local GA meeting and get some help and support to tackle this addiction, it is not easy but your life will be far better when you are in recovery rather than in a bookies.
I have been there. Ive been being physically sick on the way home from the bookies. Gone from £200 up to £800 down in a blink of an eye. Crying to myself, getting a payday loan to cover my losses and pay my essential bills and get food and then back i go at 8am the next morning to lose it all in 20 mins. Id convince myself i didnt have a problem. Ive been gamble free for 718 days and I couldnt have done it without being honest with myself... i couldnt do it alone, i had to be honest with my wife, i had to install software on my phone and laptop and let my wife have the pin, i had to have my wife have sight of all my finances. I hated it, but i hated being a compulsive gambler more. I still think about gambling daily, i still watch self help videos and my wife still challenges me if something looks odd with my finances but there is a flipside. I can be pro-active when i have urges, i can call her, tell her how im feeling, tell her how much i want to gamble. Talk about how many days it has been, where i am now compared to the old me.
Its so so hard to do it alone - i really did try for 5 years. I hope everything works out for you
Kicking yourself while you're down will make you feel worse. Be open, be honest and discuss it. Find a compromise and the best possible solution in this scenario.
Self exclude too, really easy and you can do it online!
Thank you everyone for taking the time to read and comment, As i know i cannot do this alone i have spoke to my wife and my friend today about my problems,
My wife was not as angry as i thought she would be and if anything was very supportive over the phone, I Have given my friend the task of setting up the blocking of the websites on my laptop and also a filter has been put on the internet that i do not know the password to to change it
I Dont expect an overnight cure and i know i am a compulsive gambler! I finally admitted it there is no point in hiding and pretending any more.
So today my journey has offically begun, everyone here has been kind and all who are doing the same journey have said that you cannot do this on your own
thank you for your advice and i hope to have a succesful journey
Tomorrow will be Day 1 Gambling free
Good on you... the road to recovery has well and trully begun.
All the best
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