Hello, well I’ve tried stuff in the past but this is the first I’ve written about it. Today is the day it stops.Â
My gambling spiralled out of control for a couple years now, it’s affected my relationship as my wife has lost trust in me. I couldn’t tell her the first time that I’d got in debt and she found out and I came clean. I wish I could of found the courage to tell her but I was too embarrassed and ashamed but she was so good and even helped me with my debts. I promised her that was it, and thought I could control it myself but I cannot. In only afew month it’s happened again and I’m in the same position, this time I think she has had enough and it’s time now I sort this and get help. I don’t want to lose her she’s the best thing in my life, but she has plans and I’m letting her down and putting her back. I’m not willing to keep try different stuff with her because we’ve tried it’s failed, this is not fair on her it’s something I need to do myself so I can eventually (hopefully) gain back her trust and hope I do not lose her. So I have Today asked for council from gamcare.Â
I blocked myself off all sites, she looked after finances and thought that was it but then I found crypto site. Slots. I want to be a good husband and support my wife equally as she has supported me, but I feel such a failure and a bad husband. She deserves better but I want to be that person, so I’m going to be better.
Â
I’m not sure where I go from here, right now it is all so raw and feeling so scared of what I could lose. I’m not sure what she is feeling other than let down and doesn’t trust me.
I just cannot believe that I have put at risk something I care for more than anything in the world over this stupid addiction.Â
This is it. Hopefully I can also engage in the chat rooms.
Word of advise take her with you to your local GA meeting she will get a better understanding of this illness it tough many people have a few relapses before they become alot better its a life long illness its not worth lossing your family over this illness i have had relapases when i had no intention of gambling once she understands this illness and how she could help manage the illness it will help u as at times it can be very difficult the addiction changes u into a totally different person i have done stuff i would never have dreamt off doing and having done such things i have still relapsed however with right measures the addiction can be controlled its far worse then any other addiction u have accept it life long
Hi MHA1010,
Â
Thank you for your post on our forum.
Â
It seems like you have made some really positive steps to help reduce the harms associated with your gambling. Blocking your accounts, getting your partner to looking after your finances and seeking support from GamCare are all really positive steps to take. You should be proud of yourself for making those choices.
Â
I would encourage you to continue seeking support for your gambling and giving us a call on 0808 8020 133 or contacting us via live chat, WhatsApp or Facebook for support when you are struggling. Our trained advisors can support you through this.Â
You mention also wanting to engage with our GamCare chatrooms for support too. This is also a really positive step to take. Our next chatroom is at 8PM tonight, so I would encourage you to attend for peer support. Our general chatroom currently runs everyday at 8pm. It is also available at 1pm on Fridays, Saturdays, Sundays and bank holidays https://www.gamcare.org.uk/get-support/group-chatroom/
Please do continue sharing your story with us on the forum. Hopefully, you will find it to be a safe and supportive space for you to connect with others in similar situation.
Â
Kind Regards,
Forum Admin
George
We are available 24 hours a day, every day of the year. You can also contact us for free on 0808 80 20 133. If you would like to find out more about the service before you start, including information on confidentiality, please click below. Call recordings and chat transcripts are saved for 28 days for quality assurance.
