Hello there,
I have been here on this forum for over an hour, looking at all your Posts. I can so much relate. So ok its time for me to tell my story and seeking help.
When I was 18 I started working in a casino as a croupier/dealer. I saw how much people would lose and also win. I was a pokerdealer most of the times and really picked up the game. We played poker with friends and colleages, always won. So somebody said, try some tournaments online. So I did. I won and won and loose some but did not deposit for over a year, just played with the money in my account. So all good you think. Welk then there was a turning point, we went to a casino on holiday and I lost a lot of money on roulette. Thought well I Will win it back with my poker... We went home, and ofcourse I started losing and losing. Lost all the money in the account, and started deposit and deposit and deposit. Till I had no more money left to even eat, thinking I would win it back, yea right. I closed my account and started living again. Then I met my new boyfriend, he told me he never had gambled or been to a casino but have played some slots now and then. I thought by myself what fun is in playing slots? Dont know why but signed up For a online casino, and played some slots. It went really fast, I had deposit 200 and won like 35.000, in playing a week and just random luck. So I thought is it that easy... So stupid and thought and dreaming About winning more. And of course I started playing really big, in two days I lost it all! And yes... Started depositing. Now 6 years later I have won a lot but always gambled it away the next day and more. I think I have lost over a 100.000! o*g just writing this. I have my own business and struggling now.. People are thinking my business is not running good, but it is, but how more I earn how more I play. This is so sad. The money I would have had to invest and do fun thing, go on vacation etc. I am lying to everyone and I am here sitting looking at Bill's I need to pay. This is going the wrong way. I want a happy gamble free life. Enjoy time with people, playing sports, having a drink. And not to think About my losses, not to think what could have been, not to think I could win it back, not wantend to have the adrenaline and just not being so self destructive through gambling my life away.
I need help and you guys who can support me and I want to support you! I /we can do this. Our lives are precious.
Thanks For Reading my story:-)
love, julia
Day 1 for me, without gambling. I emailed all casino websites to cancel my account. This feels good. But on the other hand there is a devil talking to me. I Will get through this. For me, everyday some money comes in. So will be hard. I am scared that I Will be doing good and get my finances healthy again, and then I go down one evening and loose it all. Need help to stay strong.
Hi Dan,
Thanks for your message. I feel confident today. I bought a beginners guitar. I need to try to substitute the gambling with something I would like to learn, or am enthousiastic about. So I hope it will help me replace the urges....
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