So today after many years of gambling I have finally reached the bottom of the barrel. Lost a considerable amount on the fobt, over the weekend I have been binge gambling on them bl**dy machines up until this afternoon I was even for the weekend and even managed to gain a small profit from todays play on the fobt.
But hey what do you know like every other compulsive gambler a small profit wasn't enough and slowly all the money was gone. I'm sick of lying to the people that I love to cover for any losses.
My story is like millions of others, what's done is done and today is the first day of my new life. I'm sure there will be many ups and downs along the path. But from today I shall not give the bookies another penny of my hard earned cash.
I've seen many people put this but I want to use this as my motto. we can't win, because we can't stop.
Good luck in your journey NMBN. You can do this. Catch up again tomorrow. Stay strong.
Thanks Change for your kind words. Had the first good nights sleep in a long time. Woke up feeling refreshed for the challenge.
Need to sort my finances out, have 3 credit cards that need to be paid off.
Had a sort of sick feeling in my stomach until I fell asleep. Think it was guilt at what I've become and the lies I've told. But today is a new start.
hey NMBN , i so feel your pain , im a compulsive gambler and attended GA but not kept it up and have recently lost large sum of them bloody roulette machines and the temptation to increase bet after bet to seek the glory of just getting back to evens is totally crazy , i recently had my first child and the illusion that i would now be sensisible and the urges dampen was optimistic ad i now find if anything im more reckless , help is needed , god is needed
NMBN - I've had that sick feeling in my stomach a lot. A big dread comes over my head about paying off my debts and affording to pay for all the things I need to. Get the sweats. Sometimes I can snap out of it and just think there's no point worrying as nothing I can do about it... except never gamble again. Keep going mate and I'll check in again later.
Day 2 - Feel very confident going forward. Haven't had any thoughts of gambling yet. That sick feeling of the last big loss is gradually fading away. I do still think how stupid I was, riskijg all that money on one bl**dy spin of a ball.
feeling pleased as I have an interview for a job this afternoon, so hopefully things are looking up.
Hi change
Your last post on here is exactly the feeling I have.
Day 4 - day 3 went quickly and very uneventful as has today, feeling really proud as I have been paid today from my other job, usually this would have been gambled by now.
Hope everyone else is doing great, thanks for all your kind words too.
Haven't been on for a short while. Personal life got in the way, luckilly this has given me the excuse not to gamble as I have been so busy dealing with issues.
Now have my son with me full time not just mon to fri, which used to give me a whole weekend to binge at the bookies.
Came clean to my Mum about my gambling debts. She very kindly paid off my credit cards. I've now cut them up and closed the accounts down. She has also paid for me and my little lad to go away on holiday in the summer holidays which will be great as I've never afforded o be able to take him away before
Sorry meant to say now day 10 without a bet
well done.x
Well done. I have only joined today. Still on day zero. Tomorrow will be my first day of non betting. You are so true. You can't win because we can't stop. Keep in touch on my post if you want. Stay strong dude. You are doing the right thing
Good to see you doing well, i am new of today and hope reading others stories will help me.Well done so far on your journey.
So I went 36 days without betting. Everything seemed to be going ok.
Then stupidly trusted myself to withdraw £20 extra from my bank and keep it in my wallet. One of the most stupid ideas I've had. Anyway walked past the bookies and managed to avoid going in, t to the end of the street and said well what can a couple of quid hurt. Well the couple of quid turned into the whole £20. It wasn't a massive sum of money but it still hurt that I let myself down and gambled after 5 weeks.
Back to the begining again for me. Still feeling optimistic as the 36 days was the lomgest I haven't gambled since I was about 14.
Must continue o update on here too as that helped me.
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