Relapse

Nothing changes if nothing changes. Pick yourself up and go again, don't let yourself to into the downward spiral. Change something....are you self excluded from sites with gamstop/gamban? Don't rely on willpower, for most compulsive gamblers it doesn't exist, I'm 631 days into recovery now ,majority of days willpower is strong but for the occasional times I'm tested I have my safety net.....exclude exclude exclude !! You can do this draw a line again, 4 months is brilliant it's not lost you came across a bump. Go again. Take care

You deserve to be happy. You deserve some peace without the stress and pain of gambling. You need to register with Gamstop for 5 years and go self exclude from all your local bookies and arcades. That's the way to start in gambling recovery in my opinion. You can do it. All the best 

Move on, anything without which you can't die is possible to let it go

Stay strong and gamble free. You can do it

Thanks for your reply. I need all the help I can get right now. I’m feeling low and depressed about everything. I have been doing so well with my recovery and felt like that 4 months had been a real achievement as I have managed to completely forget about gambling. I hate the fact I’ve lost a lot of money which has completely drained me last year. Loosing £57k in just literally 12 months has drained me of my self worth, confidence however when I decided to stop, I stayed strong and finally accepted that the money is gone. So i started fresh and slowly rebuilding again, I started seeing my friends, planning short trips, dinners out, I was finally starting to really live again after a huge loss. I can’t help but think today why has yesterday happened? Why did it have to ruin everything? Last night I couldn’t sleep again, blaming myself, seems so unreal it has happened. Thinking about the money, thinking about the loss, I know it all too well. Now I have to really budget and save this month, all my hard earned wage which have just been paid is gone. To be honest I don’t really care about losing the cash so much, what I can’t understand is why it continues to affect me mentally, constantly thinking about it, I dont even care about but why it drives me to these feelings of despair, depression, I really don’t understand. I just want to move on pas this and forget that this happened but I can’t seem to shake it 

Thank you so much absentee. I really needed to hear that. Good luck as well in your meetings. Meetings aren’t really for me or maybe I just haven’t tried. But yes I will put it all on the past, add it to the bill of stupidity that ridiculous amount I have lost. Time to get back on track 🙂

I pretty much can’t gamble big amounts on any websites as most of them are blocked. The last one where I lost £1400 not sure why I kept open. I dont know why I even done that yesterday, how sick can my mind be when everyday for the last 4 months I’m reminded of how painful loosing a huge amount of money is yet there was no problem for me staking £40 at a number, £85 on one spin. Sheer stupidity. Why does reality seem to set in after. This relapse has really brought me back to the dark feelings of the past. The funny thing is I was initially chasing a loss of £50… ended up loosing £1400. Roulette is my poison.

I’m struggling so bad with same problem have been given the a gift haven’t gambled for 2 years now my whole life in the bin can not help around the house my 2 year old I can not even play with no more my fiancée is now giving up on me as I can not get back any money spent just want to give up! Have nothing left to give to life just a massive failure ? 

Can’t get help for this no more I’m 24 and feel have no more in me to give don’t know where to go from here 

Hi @roulettegotme,

It sounds like you know that you could block all these sites but something is stopping you taking that step. If you'd like to talk it over why not talk to one of our Advisers on 0808 8020 133 or by Livechat?

Hi @ross-d, you sound like you're feeling really hopeless and like you believe there is no help out there for you. There is support available, why not give us a call on 0808 8020 133 or livechat and find out? There are also practical steps you can take to stop yourself being able to gamble again. You did it for 2 years, you can do it again. You might also want to start a recovery diary in the Diaries section, or start your own thread in New Member Intros where you introduce yourself and tell us a bit more about your story. Then other forum users can respond and support you. 

Keep posting,

Deirdre
Forum Admin

Its a merry go round of hell that never ends

Online gambling is by far the most dangerous thing i have ever experienced in my life 

You get into that routine of logging onto the sites everyday and before you know it that is literally your life

Sitting watching dealers in european countries deal blank cards out to a video camera or spin a ball around a wheel 

The same user names would constantly be on the table too morning noon and night 

I was blasting through 2/3/400 quid a session like it was water 

I am banned from most of them now but there was one where i wasn't and nearly got sucked back in fortunately i had an altercation with customer service and they banned me that probably saved me a couple of grand lol

Football and bookies you can sort of just about cope with the odd punt without doing your bollaz in but online christ it doesn't take prisoners