The amout of times i have said im not going to gamble anymore its a mugs game and not stuck to my word its bizarre. What happens with me is i lend money and i dont put it back in my bank so i spend it in the bookies. There has been times where i have missed the bus to work and went into a bookies within 15 minutes £400 has gone all because of a stupid decision. Also i won the maximum on a fobt off £12 i won £499.75, im not sure about the pence bit. Anyway, i had a feeling i was going to win as it started spinning and when it hit the number, not one bit of excitement high or buzz came out. The maximum possible out of a fobt in one go and i didnt flicker. Couldn't believe it. I've had to lie to parents when money has gone missing. I self excluded for a year at w**********l and 2 at l*******s. But obviously i went to B*****d and coral out of the way. I know they are hard to stay away from the fobts but everybody will think its easy to win, like i do aswell. Its the same faces in the bookies every day and say if i dont go in for a week, and i fancy a flutter, i'll go in and its the same people and i honestly think what am i doing in this establishment. Im paying to keep this shop open etc. I shouldn't be. Dont get me wrong i like a football bet and the odd horse, but fobts casino slots etc are awful to get addicted to. I have help too but not often enough and it doesn't work. Tried every cure possible aswell. Biggest lost was £700 in a day,once was some winnings and another time was my own. Biggest win was either £499... off £12 or i took out £565 off about £100-£150 so take your pick but i really want to put a end to all of this asap.
Been a while since I posted here. Thought I had this problem sorted. Wrong.
Anyway so just when I'm getting myself back on my feet, credit cards paid off, other debts chipped away at and cleared, I find myself thinking 'theres no way I can get back into that sort of mess as I'm cured of big betting, lets just have a little one for fun'.
Yep, everyone knows what's coming...
Just done in my entire months wages again for the third month in a row so its going to be another 3 and a half weeks of scraping by on credit that was once cleared. Just hate myself sometimes that I'm so weak.
Yep I was at that stage for 10 months. I couldnt handle the truth which is why I deleted all my posts. I was advising people and still relapsing which isnt on really
I would manage two months through sheer fear of covering the bills. It wasnt willpower so much as fear and nothing left over. As soon as I was straight or slightly ahead I would be tempted to gamble again and then I did it at two week or 6 day intervals until I finally put some blocks in place. I would feel that rush in my body and start justifying another litte flutter,another little high and another little chance to get some back.
Only it never was. I just lost more and just wanted the feeling of playing. It was actually less to do with the money as it wasnt powerful enough to break the feelings of playing
Willpower alone wont do it so dont be too hard on yourself as it does no good. I hope you will now move onto to another stage of discussing effective blocks and how you are still allowing yourself an easy route in.
The next stage is reaching out more and finally realising you cant do it on your own. I was desperate to hand over my finances but was living alone. I started telling my family and finally took some pride in self excluding.
I also worked on the reasons I was gambling. I was so depressed and bored of anything else life had to offer
Im getting stronger because I see it solely as a losing game. Im having counselling with the IAPT service through the doctor. Im happy managing my money again. This time I dont see it as temporary because I was kidding myself for 10 months and the decades before that I could control it on my own without effective blocks of the time location money triangle.
all the best.
Morning to everyone on this thread, I think it is clear to see from the postings on this thread that many many of us who have let gambling into our lives believe we can control it. If you are on this site you think you have a problem with gambling; I would say you definately have a problem if you are here. I have a problem that's why I am here. So I would say control is impossible if you are reading this. To stop we all need to go down the route of really really wanting to stop, then putting the barriers in place, time,location and available funds. The FOTB's (especially roulette) are notoriously addicative, believe me if you are reading this YOU CANNOT CONTROL GAMBLING THROUGH THESE MACHINES, they will drag you back time and time again. If you are a new person on this site with your first cry for help due to losses with these machines, take heed and read the stories properly on this site, they will save you a lot of money in the long run, if you realise and can accept now that you are on this site because you have a problem. Take me I came here years ago thinking mm I have a bit of a problem, a little bit of help I will be fine, I'm still here years on, with gambling still have taken place in 2016, IT'S REALLY HARD TO QUIT, YOU HAVE TO WANT TO AND WORK REALLY HARD AT IT, I am trying are you ?
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