Evening all,
I first turned to this forum last august after a disastrous gambling binge. I went cold turkey for over 4 months but relapsed around Christmas. I won back all the money I had lost the first time plus profit, of course I wasn’t finished. I've seen the saying 'we can’t win because we can’t stop' on this forum and I couldn't agree more. Every win made me hungry for me, and every loss made me want to win back more. Over the past 5 months my balance has been up and down but it’s finally come to a head tonight after a destructive binge has cost me £2000. Thankfully this was just savings from a part time job whilst at uni, but I know if I do not stop now it could get a lot worse. I have self-excluded from the account I used and have reached the point where I no longer want to gamble. I was shaking, the room was spinning and I actually made myself throw up this evening as a result of betting. I managed to quit for 4 months last time and am determined not to relapse this time.
Thanks for reading and any advice would be greatly appreciated!
Like yourself, win or loose gambling is making me I'll. After a binge about 2 weeks ago I sank into a deep depression( even after a win) and have really struggled until today to get out of it. I think because of what happened in Manchester I gave myself a big reality check!. Compared to others the only problems I have are self made and this yo yo cycle of living can be no more. Have to step off this ride. It's no longer fun is it when it mucks with your health
Hi Captain C
Recovery is a long process but a rewarding one. When I first embarked on recovery I made the error of attempting to go it alone. There are many resources available to you, use as many of them as possible especially at this early time. The net line helped me initially come to terms with the fact that I had a problem. Reading the accounts of others and writing my first post helped me to express my problems. Using the the counselling service to come to terms with the underlying issues that triggered my gambling was a real big eye opener and allowed me to be honest with myself for the first time.
When I relapsed it was because I strayed away from the things I had learnt and ignored my triggers. Even now when I have odd triggers and need a bit of support I might chat to the netline operators. As a result of working hard on recovery I have managed to socialise and have learnt to talk to the right friends for support too.
You can do this,believe in yourself and reach out for the support. Please keep us updated on the good and bad as we are here for support. Take carexx
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Hi Idonteatpies
I notice this has been your only post so far. Maybe you'd like to start your own introduction thread? Just go to the New Member Introductions thread, scroll to the bottom and click 'new topic'.
If you're struggling with gambling, you are very welcome to call our freephone helpline or chat to us on the netline - details at the top of each page. That goes for you too CaptainCorrigan.
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