Sorry to bother but I'll try to kill this monster

Hello George. Stick in there a day at a time. I am five days now. I think I have lost over A 100 k on gambling. I don't want to add it up or think about it. I also have changed. I am staying in bed in the morning and I don't want to talk or meet people. I cannot even make myself tidy my room. I lost 15,000 last Sunday. I am going to stop now, I hope you will too. And get back that nice human being that is still inside you, but covered up by gambling. Addition. Disease. Today I went shopping and cooked a dinner in the evening. Tomorrow I am going to tidy my bedroom. I am going to become a human being again and start to smile at people even if I don't want to smile. I will get through this. I did it with Alcohol 24 years ago. With AA and God I believe in. I hope we can help each other. Good luck, Joe

Thanks Joe, I hope we both achieve our goal. It is so hard but today I had my 1st step I was at home alone 4 hours before work and a card with my last 80 ВЈ for my phone bill. I think is a miracle thathe I was writing here instead of pressing those evil buttons. I use to have money and over the time I spend a lot. But this time I win and I hope you will join winning team. Be strong and think before act. It seem easy for me today.

Stay busy and positive George. I know this is my last chance. I know now I nearly committed suicide last Sunday. It is a frightening thought. But now I remember the little plan I was making on how to do it. And this with my Sister dead in London.

Sincere condolences RIP.

We have to fight for life not gamble it.
Stay strong. I'm here to support you, we can help each other.

Yes George. I think I should Kill *****. Not myself. LOL.

Hi Guys

Sorry to hear your loss and your life stories. I am pretty much in the same boat as you. What has helped me so far is breaking the money-time-location triangle.Take one of these away and it is impossible to gamble. I have handed over the control of my money to my spouse. I only keep the minimum daily allowance with me. In the grip of the addiction we lose sight of our learned wisdom from previous wounds and get overpowered. In our saner moments, once we hand over controls of one of three triangle elements, we secure ourselves against the madness that grips us later. It is also amazing how this madness dissipates once we realise in the heat of the moment that gambling is impossible with us having given the control of one of the three triangle elements over to someone we can trust. For me it happened. I felt very desperate initially but once I reached home and looked back I felt truly relieved. I think that breaking the triangle of money-location-time is a must. At least in the initial months. Willpower alone is not enough. Good luck to you guys and best wishes.

Thanks for advice. I'm doing this already and it's sad that when I have a payday I allways find a way to grab the card being sure that it won't happen again but unfortunately here I am. Thai time is for real I give up thinking of money and I tried to find a hobby I took extra shifts at work and it's seem to be OK. I will try to think about gambling like about a thing that I really don't like so why should I do if I hate to. We have to be strong I hope that all of us are awesome people and we will finally kill this monster once and for all. My big issue is to stop forever not for some time

Hi, WillDo79 , George , I live alone I am afraid I won't be handing my Card over, Plus I need it for my Normal way of living. I also believe that if I want to Gamble I will find a way Card or no Card, But I also believe that all addicts are different. I can also have Drink in my house and give it to friends and Guests, and although I am an alcoholic and Sober, It would not lead me to drink. It is always my state of mind that will matter. But I am going to lower my Credit amount on the card, € 15,000 I do not need.. € 1,500 will be plenty for me I think. I wish to God I had bought a small car or something with the € 15,000 I lost last Sunday. I am finding it very hard to accept the Loss of the Money this time. It happened inside a few hours. I am breaking out in a sweat thinking about it, and I also know that when I am going to be handing over Big Wads of Cash in two weeks to pay it, I will be devestated also.

The money issue can be fixed in time. It will be hard and you will remember only times when you win that's why we are tested to gamble hoping that with few pounds we can win as we saw thousands. It's all a fake thing. We go to slots with the plan to spend 20 we lose then put another and another soon are hundred maybe thousands and it happen to winning back almost the amount we played. If we leave we will say that it was a good day we didn't lose to much and we are trapped for sure we win be back really soon. If we stay disaster happen straight away so I think no way is good just STOP. think about 1 ВЈ is nothing for us if you have it you can use it for a lot of good small things but if you don't have it...I think that's why we are here. I think that in time pound by pound we will fix the money issue aswell. We are already use to save money from all the parts to put them in those sh... Be strong

Hy guys hope to find you good. I'm ok and I keep on with my plan. I received a call from a support centre for appointment but I turned down. I'm ok writhing and reading here. Till now no temptation. Money issues will start soon and I pray to God to keep me strong. Be strong.