Suicide seems the only way out

Thank you Marko. Appreciate your Good advice. Very Sorry to hear about your Disaster. I know what you mean about the Pain Lessening and Forgetting, But like my last drink 24-25 Years ago, there was something different about my last gamble, we call it hitting Rock Bottom in AA, Something happened to me. I can gamble in a 100 ways without a Credit Card. I would have found a hidden bottle of Whiskey in the Sahara Desert when I was Sick and Broke from Drink, same with Gambling. I know having a credit card is not the reason I gamble, but I also know what you mean about the damage it can do. I am so dievious that if i gambled next time I would probably bet a few thousand Cash to prove to myself I could keep my Credit card. I am a very Strange kind of Addict but no different to any other adict. I will lower my Limit on it. I cant see myself selling my House, before a Suicide so that wont worry me.

Hello joetheloss. I'm glad you're saying the suicidal feelings are going away, but if you are suffering from low mood, suicidal thoughts or depression please go to your doctor. They may be able to help. You are getting great support and advice from the forum, and I know you seem determined not to talk to anyone else about your gambling. But if you find it easier to chat online than to talk on the phone, you can contact us on the Netline. It's open 8am to midnight every day.

http://www.gamcare.org.uk/support-and-counselling/frontline-services/netline#.VeK3LvlVikp

Best wishes

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Thank you, Administration, I think I am getting better daily. I Got a place in the College yesterday to continue my TV and Film Studies for advanced level. So I will be around plenty of cash strapped students for a year, LOL. Feeling ok. And always believed there are worse things than dying in this world, and that is not suicidal talk. I appreciate so much all people's support, help, and concerns, Definitely saved me the first few nights.