I want to start with honestly and transparency.
yesterday I lost just over £5k in around 2 hours sports betting.
its not the first time. I have gambled a lot on sport for around 10-15 years. In that time I’ve had some wins but also some big losses. The losses always follow the same pattern. Chasing! Can’t help myself, get locked in on chasing the last loss and before I know it I’m thousands down. Then the reality kicks in. I reckon total losses over the years would be somewhere between £40-£50k.
As a write that I’m instantly filled with shame and a wondering of what I could have spent that money on. But I am also fairly good at accepting and not dwelling.
i am fortunate that the losses have not led to significant debt as i have a good stable income but there is still a toll as we all know. nonetheless it’s terribly unhealthy and the time has come to admit that I will never be able to gamble responsibly .
Believe it or not I work as a therapist so it just goes to show that knowing the theory etc still makes it a bloody hard thing to overcome.
i am writing this as a reminder to myself as I find it hard to tell those around me the cycle I have been in. I am going to do this, it’s non-negotiableÂ
I wish all of you the best on this difficult process and will try to become a good example to follow
my intention is to update at first on a weekly basis but hopefully moving to monthly to say I am still gambling free.Â
I am more fortunate than many so I’m not looking for sympathy. It’s me and only me I am accountable to. But I’m affirming that accountability by posting this.Â
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This is amazing mate well done for reaching out this is the first step in the right direction get all blocks in place that first step i can understand where u are coming from regarding losses i have lost £150k plus since i started gambling and i know i will have to live with this however i am pleased to say i am on day 706 since my major relapse my turning point came when i took a loan out chassing my previous salary and that was my rockbottom i made a decision enough was enough since that day i started using this site got onto the chatroom and listened to other people i got all blocks in place and continued using this site it become a chore now regardless if i have an urgue or not since then i have cleared my debt and my life is better in every shape and form coming to terms with losses is a tough one however i understand it could be even worse if i carry on u too can have this life thing will improve for you tooÂ
@tazman thank you, very encouraging and supportive words there. Well done on your recovery to date it must have been super hard but it’s inspiring to hear from people who are achieving it.
Cheers
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