Third time lucky

Hi guys. I’m on my third gamstop now. I started slots when someone talked about how good they were when I was playing poker. I was always in control of poker and I really enjoyed it, but because of gamstop, the poker sites wouldn’t let me back. So I carried on with slots, winning and losing, persuading myself it was about even and I’d win it back eventually. I only play one slot, and I’ve always been vocal about not trusting the site in chat and started to feel like I was being targeted, as whenever I’d top up, wins would hit, or if I missed a bet, a big win came. Yesterday, after two months back and about £5k down, a bet was rejected and 2700x hit. I couldn’t believe what had happened, it would have saved me. It felt like it was too implausible to be a coincidence as I’d been playing for 6 hours and no issues. I realised that it was intentional, two days before I topped up and 420x hit, after being -1300x for the day. I had enough and I’ve quit while I’m down again. I felt devastated, I was shaking and I felt physically sick. I couldn’t believe it was so corrupt. I need to Channel that anger now and never go back. The only way I can beat them and win is if I never go back. I kept thinking ‘if I could go back in time and just play on two accounts for that hit and my bet wouldn’t be rejected on both’ but actually( if I could go back I’d never have gambled in the first place and I would be in such a good position.