Ok, I've decided to join this site. I need help, my gambling is uncontrollable. I'm 27 and I've gambled pretty much all of my life, even before i was 18. I've always been a problem gambler, chasing losses, betting until everythings gone, needed the instnt wins/losses like roullette. I've tried over the years to stop, I went 8 months without any form of gambling once, but mainly it's a couple/few weeks of abstinence before i then think 'Ahh it's only £10 on a coupon!' I guess we all know what comes of that though.
The main problem for me (particularly when I went so long without a bet) was that I couldn't forgive myself. I was so angry with myself when I saw friends actually having £10 on a coupon, and accepting the result win/loss. 'Why couldn't I do that?' I would think. I could never forgive myself that my friends would have a day at the races, and I knew I couldn't go. Why like my friends, could I not just enjoy the day, have a couple of bets and enjoy that, but not let it become the be all and end all of the day. It eventually got the better of me, and I eventually convinced myself that maybe I could be like that, maybe I coud control myself, after all I'd managed to go this long without a bet. I remember my 1st bet after....it was 50p on a scorecast.....fifty f*****g pence for f**k sake. It won. The rest is a familiar story to a lot of you I guess.
I'll regularly go to the bookmakers, stupidly believe that I can put £5/£10 in a roullette machine, and before I know it, it's £500. Wages, gone. Next week, repeat. I've gambled with money I don't have, I've borrowed, I have debts that I don't even care about, because nothing matters apart from that bet, where I'm definitely going to get that next big win. Idiot.
I still live with my parents. I'v missed out on so much through gambling. I want to stop, I really do. Today was the final straw. I went to the bookies, and had £180 in my pocket. That was quickly gone before I withdrew the £90 that was in my account for a car insurance payment due tomorrow. Again, gone. It doesn't matter if I win/lose, the result is the same, eventually I'll gamble more and more until everything is gone. I'm an addict, it's as simple as that. I want to stop so badly.
Your in the right place mate, iv joined today too. Its about wanting to stop tho. I can relate to your story as well thinking it will be ok and I'm bound to win in a minute its the law of averages.
Keep on checking out the forum and hopefully somebody more experienced posts on here too.
Thanks mate. i should have probably introduced myself, my name's Rob. I've read through the forum, and just knowing there are so many others in your situation is in a bizarre way quite comforting.
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