Where do I start :-(

Hi Anjidee,

Sorry to hear what you have been going through, but its great that you have come back here to give it a go again.

You say you have tried everything to stop. Does that include counselling or, even better, going to GA? Blockers like gamstop are a great way to start but your best chance of fighting this addiction its getting to the bottom of why you have to need to do it. Put as much effort into stopping as you have into gambling.

Keep putting your thoughts down and im sure you will continue to get lots of support on here as well.

Damo

Thank you so much for replying Damo. No counselling but I did go to GA for 7 weeks. But then I thought I was clever that I could handle it myself but it's not always the way is it.
I will ring gamcare and try and sort some counselling. Enough is enough I can't do this anymore. I'm fed up of feeling low when life could be good. I work so so hard in a stressful job just to pile even more stress upon myself.

Hi Anjiee,

Yeah it took me nearly 20 years to finally take the action that was needed to stop, and believe me if I can do it then anyone can. I still think about the years of my life I wasted but I promise you it does get better.

You've made a great start by signing up for gamstop but personally i think that is just the beginning. Learn from the mistakes you have made in the past and try something new….like I said just do whatever it takes to stop you from having that first bet. No first bet then there is no second, third and so on.

Damo

Absolutely Damo. A lot of things have happened and changed this past 2 years. But I am the creator of all that.
And only I can change it. So much damage and hurt I have caused. I hope one day things will change.

How's today going Anjiedee?

Hiya sorry for for the long wait for a reply.
I don't seem to get notifications. Things are not brilliant, just phoning who I can to day bills will be late or not paid at all.
Why do u make life so hard for myself.
Another month of life struggling when I could be smiling.
I am going to arrange some counselling and I am thinking of going back to GA meetings as I attended before.
Today is another day. Hopefully a better one. I'm off out for the day with my new partner. Who knows nothing about what I do. He absolutely hates gambling or any form of it. I so want to get better. Everyone who sees me from the outside sees a strong confident person with a highly sensible sensitive job. Where as inside I am crumbling and filled with hate.
Any way enough about me how are you doing and getting on?
Xxxx

I would just like to say I am now 22 Days Gamble free.
I am so proud of me it's the longest I have ever gone without.
Financially things are still very hard, but better than they would be if I was gambling.
Gamstop has truly been a blessing.
Xx