2015 Challenge

Checking in day 3. Thanks Bornagain for adding me into the list. Keep strong everyone.

Back to day one for me. I gave up my bank card but all i need to do is ask for it back and the damage is done. I dont blame anyone else but myself. Not sure if creating a diary is a good thing. The forum has changed since i first joined

Checking in on 30 days no gambling. Still hurting but i know the clock can't be turned back. Just got to fight (like us all on here) for that future we deserve! A bright happy one! Cheers

17 check ins still missing, I am hanging back from doing the update fr another hour because it takes me so much more sorting out when I have to remove people and then add them again. Please get checked in if you missed last week!

Hi Phil and all,

I'd like to re-join the for the 7 months remaing of 2015 if that's possible please. I read that you experienced a slip Phil and some others have had a whoopsie too, back on the horse back into battle it is!

I last posted early April and I slipped the same time as the Grand (gambling fiasco) National was on, although I didn't gamble on the race I had some form of frikken laser beam grip my mind and pull me into fobt hell!

And fobt hell and online gambling is where I've been since then :-/ I've wasted more time, incurred more debt and not invested emotionally into my relationship as I've been consumed mentally by gambling action and losing.

Tomorrow will be day one, I need to put the triangle back in place and bar myself from the online site I've joined - joined and lost huge amount in few hours - I just have to wait 4-5 days for them to pay into my account a small amount.... About 2 hours ago as I hit the spin again tab on my touchscreen I just felt like 100 bags of sand fell on me, withdrew and came here... Crushed spiritually I guess.

About two weeks ago I phoned a Samaritans helpline (first time ever) I believe I was going to end my misery that night but talking helped and I just went to bed feeling numb. FEELING NUMB, ha, and feeling numb was the best case scenario for me that night as at least I woke up the next morning.

So I've put myself through the horror garden of gambling, given myself another fresh nightmare and just want to never ever gamble again. "I can't start because I cannot stop!" I know this!!!! So why did I?!

best to all,

TFT

will all relapse , evem the person orfansing the thread threatens to leave the forum

162 days clean. A new month starts tomorrow. Let's make it a gamble-free one.

point above, no one reads the posts.

I am not a member of this challenge so forgive me for posting but once again, I have felt the need to flag 2 above posts (not you pellekanin & a massive congrats on your day count) from a particularly aggressive author as abusive 🙁

Phil is doing an incredible job running this thread despite being a CG like everyone else on this challenge & fighting his own battles whilst doing so!

If you don't have anything constructive to say then don't post!

To everyone participating...PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE get your check in's done on time & Keep fighting - ODAAT

ODAAT wrote:

I am not a member of this challenge so forgive me for posting but once again, I have felt the need to flag 2 above posts (not you pellekanin & a massive congrats on your day count) from a particularly aggressive author as abusive 🙁

Phil is doing an incredible job running this thread despite being a CG like everyone else on this challenge & fighting his own battles whilst doing so!

If you don't have anything constructive to say then don't post!

To everyone participating...PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE get your check in's done on time & Keep fighting - ODAAT

well said odaat. We are all here to support each other and nobody should be posting abusive or aggressive messages on here

also people must realise being part of this challenge won't suddenly make you stop being a CG but what it does do is Helios you through the battle but only if you use it the right way. Being abusive won't help to much

Checking in on day 43 GF.

Sad to see some negative/abusive posts, we are all trying to recover from this awful addiction, we have good days and bad, but we must not take it out on others, this is our fight, we need support through it, but the only ones who can change are ourselves.

Phil fully support you on this challenge it is a great incentive for a competitive person like myself, keep it up, don't let the lone negative comments get you down, you do a fab job.

We march on ODAAT.

Sorry for delay, was away for couple of days. Gamble free for 130 days.

Checking In - Day 354

Thanks Phil for all the effort you put into this challenge. Together we are stronger. Suzy

Checking in after a brutal stag weekend in Amsterdam. Bizarre seeing a casino inside an airport - I was certainly too broken from the weekend to even consider going in though

Welcome back to the challenge Tick follows Tock, 😉

I too found it sad to read on this challenge thread negative thoughts in a couple of posts. because this thread is full of POSITIVITY and HOPE and DETERMINATION 99% of the time,

Phil is doing a fantastic, time consuming job, running this challenge, whilst struggling at this time with his own recovery.

This thread is a team thread, we are all marching along the same road whether day 1 or day 1001, we are all one day at a time,

Checking in for the new week on day 399, and I sincerely hope we all have a good, positive and determined gambling free week,

Suzanne xx