hi all
hope you are all bearing up , im joe 32m and unfortunatly for me im a big time Compulsive gambler for least last 10 years , every time thinking i can control the urges , every month saying i want to spend and save my salary wisely just to lose the majority of it , i work in business and appreciate money and like to think im reasonable intelligent but continue to line high street and online bookie companies with too much money , money i should be spending on my family , money they really don,t need anyway
however last few months its hit a new low and everyone who said this is a progressive disease are bang on , FOTB has spiralled out of rational thinking altogther , i would noramlly least pay my rent and bills before punting but in may and june i have plummunted all my wages into the evil belly of these machine , visa payments behind counter so dangerous , 80 , 150 , 150 ,200 , , sweating need to hit a number we least £12 on it , twice , then after last spin , the disgusting horrible feeling is all consuming , every single thouht is money and what have i done , i spent all my money and could make my family homeless , contemplating walking out in front of bus as i sheeplishly walked out of high street bookies , then day after night my mind is torture , why do we do it
anyway i started new career in oil industry and i have a great dad who bailed me but like you know bail outs not the anserw so im here asking for help real help this time , not gambled for few days , trying to fully self exclude , just sick of it
Hi Spraggy,,,firstly, welcome to the forum, You are in a good place with a lot of people who can give valuable advice.
I had a similar story,as my bets got bigger and I spent more time in the bookies; my personailty deteriorated. I tried to stop on my own but the lure of the FOBT but was too much and I'd be back at it.
For me, the only respite came when I went to GA...a scary thought, but have you considered it? You will find it welcoming and listening to others is a great help.
There are a lot of practical steps you can take also - install K9 blocker onto your computers, self-exclude from bookmakers and hand over your finances to your partner (have you told them yet? it's difficult but I guarantee it will help in the long run).
Continue to engage with other people and take advice on board. People here have done it and got the T-Shirt (and some have probably gambled the T-Shirt away too).
Hope it goes well for you and welcome.
thanks gary , i know what i got to do , even though im reasonable young at 32 i been through the ill,s of compulsive gambling and i have seeked advise from GA and self exclusions but took it lightly and back to square -1 , i do feel bit different this tme and going to embrace the help i need , my ga sess in southampton sunday night , self exclud hard as i live in the city center and so many bookies everywhere
cheers half life i rang them they went through all them all i done a blanket cover still need to block my phone though , peace all
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