Hi, Im 30, and have been gambling since I was 15, so roughly half my life. I have a beautiful family who I let down financially due to an ever growing gambling problem. There feels like there is no end, and im close to the edge.
Take this month for instance, I withdrew my last ВЈ300 of my wage, and what do I do, decide to go gambling with it. I sat at a slot machine and won the £500 jackpot. Great time to leave, right? For some inexplicable reason I decide to stay on the machine. I can't physically *** myself to press the collect button.
The last month I took out two payday loans, one for ВЈ400 and one for ВЈ300, and gambled them away. I have also took out a £5000 loan and gambled that away on FOBTs.
Im not asking for sympathy, far from it, we all make our own decisions, my objective in writing this is hopefully to keep coming back to the forum and triggering the reasons why I came here in the first place.
Thanks
I can't tell my partner, she'd go nuts. Im a full time employee but I lose far too much money.
What's surprising being from a seaside town is that there are no support groups set up for problem gambling in this area.
Im fed up of paying interest payments for debt. It's my fault of course, but I can't wait until this all just goes away, im losing my hair with the anxiety of it all.
Hi,
I would suggest going into the local bookies in your town and just excluding yourself from them.
If you gamble online, join Gamstop and this will stop any online gambling in an Instant.
I really do wish you the best of luck.
This is my view:
I think you should be honest and tell your partner. In the long run she'd go more nuts when she finds out you've been living a lie and not telling the truth. It will hurt her way more if she catches you out and the way you are going eventually she will do. Trust me I'm speaking from experience.
Also by admitting it it shows you've accepted you have a problem and you want to change. Yes you've come on here and wrote that and well done but for me you need to do more than that. I'm presuming you love each other very much. That's not how you treat someone you love by keeping secrets. Spin it the other way how would you like it.
You need her help and if you are honest now you'll both benefit longer term.
You need help in this situation and she can give it you. Try and start counting the days you haven't gambled. Set small targets and when you reach them reward yourself.
Good luck you can beat this if you really want to.
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