I keep thinking every time I get the urge to gamble that maybe I'm not actually a real gambler and that I can actually gamble responsibly if I wanted to control it! as I'm not in any debt yet so maybe that's why, is my mind playing tricks I just don't understand why I'm thinking like this? Is it the demon trying to persuade me?
It's most definitely the demon. I've had similar thoughts. "I'll just place a £10 acca"... I placed that acca and then placed a £20 to win it back then a £50 then a £100 then a £200 then a £500... and then if I had enough a £1000! It's worse than any other addiction I have ever experienced. It's impossible to control if you are wired in a certain way... and I'm that certain way which is rather unfortunate when you love gambling coz it's all you've done for 10 years. On the positive side I love my family more than I love gambling so I've hung up my gambling boots.
well said change ,im exactly where you are , i dont class any of my other addictions as bad apart from to the body i suppose but gambling can ruin you for a month in hours abd ruin your life very quickly , that chase £50 £100, £250 , empty bank balance is so familar and wrecking havoc at home , but ur right its all i loved for many years and hated and roulette is the devil the numbers add up to 666 100% addictive , stay strong , life and love and family will prevail if u want it too
I think the fact you're even questioning yourself shows you know the answer.
I'd quit gambling for a time, then manage to convince myself I'm in control. After about 18 years of going back and forth like this I've not been in control once!
I found it hard to accept, as I loved a good gambling session. It's like someone telling me I can't have chocolate ever again. Knowing I shouldn't do something often makes me want it more! I'm still having slips, but they seem to be fewer and further between these days and less intense too. I'll always have periods where I want to gamble and even think I'm fine to do so, but deep down I know better.
Gambling addiction really is a demon. It sweet talks you when you're off guard with those little thoughts. I had a relapse very recently, and I believe I even saw it coming. I'd spent months having flittering thoughts of gambling and subconsciously convinced myself I should. Months my warped mind (or the addiction) was working on me before I caved. Months.
It's your choice, but my advice would be not to do it.
Pinky333 wrote:
I think the fact you're even questioning yourself shows you know the answer.
I'd quit gambling for a time, then manage to convince myself I'm in control. After about 18 years of going back and forth like this I've not been in control once!
I found it hard to accept, as I loved a good gambling session. It's like someone telling me I can't have chocolate ever again. Knowing I shouldn't do something often makes me want it more! I'm still having slips, but they seem to be fewer and further between these days and less intense too. I'll always have periods where I want to gamble and even think I'm fine to do so, but deep down I know better.
Gambling addiction really is a demon. It sweet talks you when you're off guard with those little thoughts. I had a relapse very recently, and I believe I even saw it coming. I'd spent months having flittering thoughts of gambling and subconsciously convinced myself I should. Months my warped mind (or the addiction) was working on me before I caved. Months.
It's your choice, but my advice would be not to do it.
Hi thanks for your advice pinky....over the past few days and after reading so much on here I have come to realise this is the demon testing me, he's messing with my mind making me think I'm not a gambler really! And that i can control it! But I know full well now, as thinking back of all the times I have said I'll just do ВЈ20 on the online slots and that will be it! It won't break the bank, but that ВЈ20 then was lost and I would chase back with another ВЈ20 then a ВЈ50 then another ВЈ50 and I have gone on to spend £500 in just one night on just one slot machine!!.. so from now on I am going to only think of them times....
That sounds like a good plan. Well done for not letting the gambling demon (I'm quite enjoying that name for it!) pull the wool over your eyes.
Keep coming here. I lost my focus when I stopped checking these boards. Something I don't intend to allow to happen again.
Good luck and well wishes x
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