Another poem, easier to say stuff this way

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Just another poem thing to express how I feel

Alone a sit thoughts plauge my mind,
All I want to do is sleep and cry.

The dark shell is enclosing again,
Its wall echo with my screams of pain.

Its just to much this gambling demon,
Those lies the tricks i constantly weaken.

My escape has been self destruction and pain.
Arms were made to bleed time and time again.

The intial cut then stream of red,
Was the only thing to distract the pain in my head.

Shirt after shirt sheet after sheet,
Would be ruined after another self defeat.

Money lost times made hard,
And i permanant reminder in the form of many scars.

I would cut not just of the gambling or the destruction I would do,
But for the pain within I did it just to get through.

Gambling has a poisoned kiss,
As it meets your lips a lifetime you will miss.

When you awake from its hypnotic bounds,
You find money,friends,love are no longer around.

You try to think how to it happen it must be a dream.
Then you remember on how making money you were keen.

It all floods back the broken promises the lies,
Worst of all tears in loved ones eyes.

For the times they tried to help but in vain.
As you promise i will change.

Then comes the urge and all promises and memories forgotton.
Gambling starts again and our soul is then more rotten.

Out of money chances blown,
Ending up drained,broken and alone.

People have moved on Iam forgot,
Haunting by the ghosts of what I have lost.

For me everyday i think of her and us,
And trust me when i say this how much i miss her tortures me enough.

But what can do know cry and give in?
Or muster the strength to make of myself something?

Well Iam not giving in because I know somepart of the good me holds on still with in.

I am smart academically and my exams are near,
YOU CAN YOU CAN DO IT, whispers the voice in my ear.

I have to do it not for her or them,
But for me because I can do it my friend.

Money can be earned debts paid,
And a path to success and recovery can be paved.

But potholes will form and obstacles may block my path,
Aslong as I navigate around them I will have the last laugh.

Thanks for reading

 
Posted : 11th March 2017 1:16 am
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Hi Rob27 just wanted to say that I found your poem very moving and I wish you nothing but luck on your road to recovery x

 
Posted : 11th March 2017 10:44 am
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Hi just read your poem and have to say you have a way with words that draws the reader in, I wish you strength and peace Rob to overcome this addiction x

 
Posted : 21st March 2017 10:36 pm
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Awfully kind of you to say such things,really means alot

 
Posted : 22nd March 2017 11:36 am

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