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Wishicouldstop
(@wishicouldstop)
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Hi. Iv been on this forum for quite some time now. Iv failed a few times but really don't want to fail again. And I feel it could go that way... My last relapse was the 3rd November. I have done 85 days but I can feel myself slipping again. I took out a 20,000 loan to consolidate all my debt so everything is in one place and all overpayments will come off my total debt. Iv been doing well, saving money in my help to buy isa as I want to buy my own place but this last week I have felt the urges coming back. I should have logged in earlier and joined the chat rooms because I'm feeling it more each day. I just went on a free site to play blackjack to see where things would have gone and turns out I would have lost another £8k. Thank god it was just practice mode but I'm sure you can see why I'm concerned. I don't want to go back where I was and you guys are the only people I can talk to about it really. I'm on last chance living in my parents house and Iv finally got a little money saved up. I don't want to blow it all. I don't think these urges will ever fade and it's so hard to fight it every day. Hope everyone is doing well

 
Posted : 28th January 2017 12:54 am
woodley3
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Hi Wishicouldstop

First of all congratulations on the 85 days gamble free a great achievement upto now ! I can't say I personally feel like I want to gamble again at this moment in time unlike yourself but I know that feeling could only be round the corner and I have to have things in places to deal with this should I feel like it might happen i.e.:- contact friends to talk as this was my down fall not talking to people and also just coming on here as a reminder of how bad things were and could get again!! I presume all your gambling is online ? Have you not got any blocking software in place to stop you logging onto these sites ? Maybe a good start to try and prevent you from gambling when you have the urge ?

Well done for coming on here and admitting your feelings with regards going gambling again. Have you seemed any help through Gamcare or even gone to a GA meeting ?

All the Best

Darren

 
Posted : 28th January 2017 7:46 am
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Well done on 85 days gambling free, thats a great achievement! It seems to me that you need to find someone to can trust and open up to them so you have someone you can talk too. Maybe this person can also take control of the money you have saved? I had £18k in savings while trying to quit gambling...gave in to my urges once and ended up losing the lot in 1 week. You are doing so well and I would hate to see you repeat my actions as you say you feel you could go that way. Gambling doesn't bring us any pleasure or fun...just misery. Dont go back to that misery.

 
Posted : 28th January 2017 12:03 pm
Oldhamktf
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Hi bud been wondering how you've been getting on and I have to say I'm delighted to see you've nearly racked up the 90 days. It actually quite refreshing to see someone you have not seen around for a while comeback before acting on the urge.

You more than many know it's not worth gambling after winning and then being refused a payment due to self exclusion.

I often try an check the tram driver out when I'm outside GA after I missed you driving by lol, I'm still at GA and you know where we are but I know work was getting in the way, in the back of my mind I thought you might live near Bury? I went to a GA meeting there last Monday a new meeting but a good bunch of lads could be worth you checking out.

Anyhow good to see you back keep fighting the fight.

KTF

 
Posted : 28th January 2017 12:36 pm
Wishicouldstop
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Hi all thanks for your replies. I told my mum how I was feeling and she has taken my cards off me for the time being and giving me a tenner each day. I don't spend all this but save what I can so I can treat myself and my daughter whilst I'm off work. I also spoke to another friend who was starting to slip into gambling bad about the same time as me and that helped. The urges I was getting have now gone. Just have to fight it when temptation comes along because I feel so good that I didn't give in. I also paid a good chunk of my loan off so all these little things help. 5 more days and I will have been off gambling for 100 days. KTF I live in Littleborough. I know there's a meeting at Rochdale but I liked the Oldham meetings. I'm going to have a Tuesday off in 2 weeks so hopefully I will be able to come along.

 
Posted : 6th February 2017 2:32 pm
Oldhamktf
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Rochdale on has closed down unfortunately not enough interest, you know you will be more than welcome back at Oldham.

 
Posted : 6th February 2017 3:09 pm
Wishicouldstop
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I thought that might happen. Will try and make an Oldham visit soon. Just a quick update. I'm about to hit 100 days in the morning. Iv not had any urges since my last wobble and can't say how good it feels to beat that urge that crept upon me. I feel it made me stronger in a way. Hope everyone has a good gf weekend

 
Posted : 11th February 2017 2:03 am
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Well done you on hitting 100 days in the morning, keep at it....so proud of you.

Julie x

 
Posted : 11th February 2017 10:43 pm
Sillycow
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Congrats on your 100!

M x

 
Posted : 11th February 2017 11:39 pm
Wishicouldstop
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Thanks for all your replies 🙂

 
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