Hey guys
I have not posted on here for a little while, last time I did I was struggling with finances, still feeling low and finding it hard adjusting to limited money and recognising my withdrawl symptoms. This week I had my final session available to me with my counsellor and was proud to have my Father present with me to have his say on my progress. I have had such amazing support from my parents and my fianceГ© she has been my rock through this.
My work colleagues, particularly my managers and best friend Chris have been fantastic support and even congratulated me on completing my counselling, I said to them to not congratulate me but for a particular reason. People have this idea that now my counselling has finished that is it and I am ok to live on now, anyone reading this who believes the same is quite wrong. I have been a gambler for 14 years, so 4 months as a recovering addict is not a long amount of time in essence. Yes i recognise goving up an addiction cold Turkey is really hard and I am proud of where I have come so far but i merely see completing my first steps of counselling as closing the final page on chapter 1 and beginning chapter 2 in my biography of recovery.
My point in this story to anyone coming to terms with addiction is this. I felt low and useless and felt like I was getting nowhere but addiction will make you feel like that and make you feel like it would just be easier if you didn't bother. In my case it hasn't been an option as I stand to lose way too much and I'm not even talking about money, I stood to lose the love of my life and my children so money to me didn't matter. Through perseverance and hard work I have nearly cleared 3 debts and am around 8 months away from clearing the lot of them but had I not gone to gamcare and breakeven I wouldn't know what I know now.
Keep working, believe in yourselves and you will see like I am seeing after just over 4 months that there is no limit to what you will achieve.
Matty
Thx. Matty! You are an inspiration. All the best to ya. tara2
Thanks Tara
It has been very difficult coming to terms with what gambling has caused but I feel so much better for coming to terms with it and working on ridding it from myself. I have a project on at the moment that I wish to use to help others with this addiction and one in my mind ghat my fianceГ© and I feel is a good idea for the future.
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