I shared my story in the 'New members' section so if you have taken time to read that thanks. Basically for
those who havent, im in a right mess with gambling, i have been in denial of being an addict for yeara but now it has been eating away at me slowly almost like a parasite in my body eating its way out of me and i have finallu been broken literally into tears today becus im desperate for help and this is where i have turned to reading others stories and writing my own story for others to read, just to get how i feel out in the open and hopefully it well help me realise what the consequences are that i am facing. I am bet free from Saturday ( 2days) i know, it sounds crazy its not long at all. Sunday wasnt so bad that was day 1, day 2 monday the 29th has been very difficult, i have been on a downer all day at work, moody, depressed, angry at myself, all sorts of nasty negative feelings and emotions. I want you to all stand up and fight with me, and fight these demons and monsters that are causing this pain of this mess we are all in, im not afraid to take a stand so iwant everyone to stand with me and we'll all walk this road together and hell it might be a long road but it will be worth it. Its time to take control of my life right now, i want to be in charge of gambling and not let gambling be in charge of me. I cant keep living this way, im so fed up, its time to put my life back together right now! And i hope as many of you as possible see this and join me in time of need when we can come together as one and beat this together!!!
Much love, Adam x
Hi Adam
Congratulations on being gamble free since Saturday! And welcome to the forum. I read through your other thread and it's great that you already have a group who are supporting each other.
You mentioned that you gamble on your phone and are considering going for a walk and leaving it behind so you can't give in to the urge. That's a great idea but there is even more you can do. You could download blocking software which would make it more difficult to open gambling sites and apps. You can also self exclude from all your existing accounts. Finally, I know you're not keen on telling your family but if you do, they may be able to help by keeping hold of your bank cards for you so you can't gamble with them. There's more information about these options at our website:
http://www.gamcare.org.uk/get-advice/what-can-you-do#.VZKY1_lViko
Sounds like you are struggling with strong mood swings and emotions. You'd be very welcome to call us on the Helpline 0808 8020 133 to talk it through. It's free from most mobiles and open from 8am to midnight every day. If you prefer to webchat the Netline is available 8am to midnight as well and is accessible from the front page of our website.
Wishing you every success with your recovery!
Deirdre
Forum Admin.
Good stuff Adam!! You are at the right place. Keep reading the stories. Make yourself happy because all that you've done is in the past. You are in control of your future, not your wallet!!!
Good luck! Think positive! Every day you are clean is a bet that you have won! Winning every day feels good!
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