Here i am yet again, I just can't stop gambling, everytime im home alone, on goes the computer, and away we go with the online roulette. I can't get roulette out of my mind, its the first thing i think about when i wake up of a morning, i work out when i can get my next gambling fix. I just don't know where to turn, ive told myself many times thats it no more, but always end up blowing hundreds of pounds. Won most of my money back the other week, that i had lost over the years, im starting to think this was the worst thing that could of possibly happened, because now i think i can win again, and its not happening. Im no longer in debt, as i paid all the money back that i owed with that win, still had some left over, not got a great deal left now though, if i carry on doing this, i'll be back to having debts of 10,000+ again.
Wish i could just wake up one morning and playing roulette wasn't the first thing on my mind, i keep closing all my accounts down, but then go and open new ones! I can't install a block on my computer as i work for part of the gambling industry so need to access certain sites.
Like in my previous posts, no-one knows about my gambling problem, i can honestly say this past year it has been really bad,but have i hit rock bottom? im think no, because surely if i had i would have stopped by now.
Basically just came on here today to get a few things off my chest, its hard not having anyone to talk to about this.
Next task, go close all the new accounts i have opened again, why are there so many sites! arrggghhh
I do hope one day there will be light at the end of the tunnel 🙁
I used to gamble on roulette ive managed to stop gambling for 162 days today, just over 5 months,if I can do it u can too close all those online accounts.
Great Work Stop, I hope i can be in your shoes 1 day, Toady is back to being my day 1 again today, All my online accounts are now closed.
If your mindset doesn't change, there is no rock bottom that you can't drop any further from. Because each time, it's a new low. I've been there a million times.
Like you I had debt, carried on gambling. won enough to pay it all back and I did, 2 weeks later. I was asking for the money from the very same people again. This has happened about 3/4 times too.
I don't have the answers on how to stop but I know reading through the pages here. It is possible, there's success stories here.
I've been there too, stop, start, stop, start. This time I haven't gambled since sept and I intend it to be the last. You have to really really work hard at this, you've had a relapse, what did you learn from it? You've now closed accounts which is brilliant but you need to get help with why you gamble. Give gamcare a call and consider counselling, it's a good process and will hopefully help. If you carry on, the rock bottom will. Get deeper and more painful. All the best
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