Gutted

You can do it. I went 6 months and relapsed. I'm now on 172 days free. You can do it!

What a mess. Still been gambling and borrowing to gamble this last week.

A nice even grand down now and am forced to stop due to lack of funds til payday.

What a total mess. After 6 months I thought I was past all this but I've gone through the same old thought process and feelings that I always do. The occasional high when I feel like I can pay all my debts off and buy everything I think I need, which then quickly turns in to a major low, not knowing how I will afford to live til payday.

All effort and thoughts have gone to gambling the last couple of weeks. Losing focus on family and work.

Disgusted in myself that I'm going through it all again.

Gav. Dust yourself off and go again. Things will get better. Call Gamcare to get you started. I did.

Hi Gav.

Im the exact same as you mate. sometimes wonder if its possible for me to stop honestly sick to death of it.

Hello Gav1987

It sounds like you are struggling right now there is support here for you. The GamCare helpline is open every day 8am-midnight. Advisers can let you know about free counselling available in your local area and there are also Gamblers Anonymous group support meetings across the UK. The helpline Freephone is 0808 8020 133 advisers can also be contacted through our net line. http://www.gamcare.org.uk/support-and-counselling/frontline-services/netline

There are also Gamcare chat rooms everyday where you can speak with other forum users who support each other please find information for the chat room here. http://www.gamcare.org.uk/chatroom

Keep posting we are here to support you

Take care

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I write tonight through tears. I hope this is the end of the month long binge which has cost close to £1800. A silly amount of money, sickening. The time wasted and emotional strain are just as sickening.

I've admitted to my dad tonight at least that I'm in a mess with money and tomorrow I'll admit my gambling problem. I'm not looking forward to it but I hope it will be my first step forward.

I've never openly admitted having a problem to family so this will be the first time after 13 years of gambling. Now isn't the time to mention to my girlfriend though...she'd leave me. And rightly so. I'll tell her in time, once I've proven I can quit for a sustained period (although I have said this before).

I can't keep living my life like this. It's torture. Silent torture.

You need to have a support network around you and being completly honest with your family and girlfriend will hopefully achieve this.
If your girlfriend leaves you then so be it. Very blunt but if she can't support you with this then she isn't the right person for you.

What are you going to do different this time round compared to the last 6 months you were gamble free ?

This addiction can be beat with 100% honesty.

It's very difficult to do it alone and this cycle won't stop without the support.

I'm writing this from my room in a residential rehab centre for gambling, the one thing I have learned is that honesty is key.

Good luck

You started this thread , £580 down and ended it £1800. I was in same situation two weeks ago, came back on here after 6 months having it all under control and then lost £600, how i wish i had just stopped then, ended my two week gamble binge £1400 down.

I just couldnt accept being £600, then i said no more then £1000 thinking i could get a few hundred back but i just had the worst run lost like 5 bets in a row at odds of around 4/6 and that was that, my last two bets were of £200 stakes, crazy when my average stake is £5 when i dont get caught chasing.

I beat myself up for a few days but ive just said to myself i can live with it, i dont smoke and dont even drink that much so its annoying yes but not the end of the world.

Ive been with my girlfriend two years and this was the first time i have told her about my gambling addiction, with me it comes and goes every 6 months. She was shocked and upset with me but im glad i told her as she is proper on my case now if she ever feels im gambling, ive also downloaded betfilter which helps a lot, cant gamble on my phone anymore which was how i used to gamble before.

​You have to tell someone close to you about it, they will be mad or shocked but once its out you will feel a lot better and they will know about your problem.

Hi Daz are you there id like to get in contact I was at gordonmoody rehab too

Hi Kingster.
Yes I am in forum. Have left GMA though now