I don't think I can come back from this.

Hi Mike,

I can’t tell you what to do but all I can say is I’ve also felt recently like I should end it all to save myself and others. I haven’t and I’m still fighting and I know you can too. If it gets too much and you’re in immediate danger could you call emergency services or Samaritans? Pain can’t last forever.

I don't know what to do I'm just a burden, I can't believe I done this again but so much worse. I don't how how I can recover from this. This shame and feeling I feel will last forever damage is done now.

I feel if I tell them it'll tip me over the edge I've destroyed it all and for what I can't do this anymore I ruined my life I keep thinking I should just end it already get it over with.

Hi Mike, I came across your post and I can see you’re in a lot of pain. You have come to the right place for support and help. If you feel that you cannot cope please call the Samaritans tonight. You can also call Gamcare (I’m not sure of their hours... they may be closed now) and an advisor will help you. You need to speak to someone. You will feel much better once you do. You need to get some support and help. You have made the important first step and you will get lots of support here. Everybody supports everybody here. What you’re feeling now will pass and you will move forward from this. Take care of yourself.

Mike, I just checked... the Gamcare helpline is open again at 8 am. Take care of yourself

I don't think I want to be talked out of it, I feel I've made my mind up I'm just going to end it. End the suffering for myself and loved one I'll pay them back first then my time has come. I can't live this life of mystery I ruined my chance.

There's nothing knowone can do soon my bills will bounce friends and family hate me I can't deal with that this pain is to much.

Please talk to someone. You will feel better once you do. We’re all only human at the end of the day. The important thing is to seek help when we need it and do our best to move forward and make a better life for ourselves. Look at the diaries on this website. You are not alone and you will get lots of support. It’s one day at a time.

But it won't help I'm screwed, I will wait up to see if I can get a loan if not decision is made if so there may be hope yet. Thanks for your help it's very kind.

I feel alone I've ruined my relationships my family hate me I imagine my friends the same it's all gone.

Just remember you’re not alone and you will get lots of support and help here. I only joined myself about two weeks ago. It’s a great forum and everyone is so kind a supportive.

Hi Mike, just wondering how you got on? I was in a very similar position to yourself a few months back and, to be honest, I won't financially recover for years. But StepChange helped massively and talking on here was, literally, a lifesaver. I had a couple of relapsed trying to stop gambling, but am two months in now. One of the things that really helped me was looking at success stories, at some of the longer recovery diaries. Sure there are lows, but there are so many positive stories. It really gave me strength to literally just put one foot in front of the other sometimes. X

Not good I attempted to take my own life but was found, I can't believe I have let myself get into a place this dark.

Just finished talking with my family bank refused can't blame them there, no idea what I'm going to do now the shame is unbearable

Dear Mike33011

Well done for reaching out for help on our forums and I see you have been receiving encouragement from Maria25 and Lil30. I am concerned to read that you have been feeling suicidal and have made an attempt to take your life. It sounds as if you feel hopeless now and are predicting that your life can't get better from this point, but often our callers do reach out to us at a desperate moment and once they have shared the burden they feel relieved to have told someone. We would encourage you also to share this with a family member and also see your GP. Please contact us on our free HelpLine 0808 8020 133 or the netline, and please urgently seek medical advice if you need it after your attempt on your life. Please also seek help from the Samaritans on 116 123.

We are here to help, please don't be alone with this.

Warm regards

Leigh

Forum Admin

You are not alone. I have no answers for you I'm sorry but others have got out of the pits of despair maybe we can do. It feels criminal how consistently you can have everything taken from you by these dirty dirty companies. Work all month, month after month, and it all goes to them. How can you mentally recover from it. I don't know mate I hope you find a way too

Mike it will get better! Think all of us on here had similar thoughts at times. It's a good thing when you hit rock bottom the only way is up. Rock bottom forces us to change and get rid of this evil addiction. Stay strong

Hello,

I understand how you feel I’ve been there myself. I lost everything and felt like ending it all but I came clean to my family it was the hardest thing i’ve ever done but it saved my life and my finances. You may be surprised at the reaction I know its easy to feel like everyone will walk away but if they love you enough they will understand.

Its not an easy road and sadly after two years gambling free I started again recently as I lost my support system.

Stay strong and keep talking on here